SO WHAT IF I'M A GAY

End of the World;

2012-01-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

ITS 2012!!! WEEEEE~~~~ hehehe

my new year resolution, i wanna be MORE confident!!! i shall not care about how others look at me and be a confident person with pride! i also want to be a person who would be able to make others happy and be happy too!!! i wanna try out new stuffs like mentoring kids actually. hahahaha! and probably get my license this year!! since i'm gonna be 18!!!

looks doesn't define what a person is like, it is the inner beauty that counts!!! (:

Coffee, Tea or Latte? (:

2011-12-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

hehehe, went to turtle macs with lai, zhen and loo !!!
so we decided to celebrate loo's birthday today. hahaha, and she actually thought we forgot her birthday HAHAHAHA
oh! and i realise i can't light a candle. WTS!!! == HAHAHA AND THE FLAME TOUCHED MY THUMB!! PAIN AH!!

and today's weather is really good eh!! morning damnnnn sunny and hot already. then lunch rain! then after that sunny again!!! HEHEHE AWESOME!!!
and oh, walking to holland v in that weather, can kill LOL

and the surprise was really...exciting!! cause i was very scared that loo will find out, but ah, she's abit pakjiao, didn't see at all LOL!!! and she was shocked!! hehehe.

i lied to her that i wasn't ready, so when lai haven't reach, i told her to wait for me at mrt. then told her i will be damn late, but lai reached le, so she went there first. then i hid and surprised her!!
and stupid zhen was like, sleeping like a pig!! called her, texted her SOOO MANY TIMES, and yet she still didn't wake up!! ):
so she joined us later hahaha. ohwells.

then we went for photoshoot! well, life is NEVER like what you expect it to be! hahaha. what i expected for photoshoot is damnnnnn awesome! but er, my skills not very good. plus, they're not very coorperative ah. except for loo of course. HAHAHA. BUT IT WAS STILL FUN!

LOTSSSSSSSS OF UNGLAM PHOTOS LOL BUT OHWELL, I LIKE HEHEHEHE

ALL IN ALL, IT WAS A REALLY FUN DAY!!

AND LOO LIKES THE DIARY I WROTE FOR HER!!! HEHEHE (:

Forever&Always;

2011-10-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!
it's been sucha long time since i've blogged!!! (:

hmmm. life WAS pretty great during the holidays, though i didn't get to spend alot of time with TOILET GANG. hehehe. JC PEOPLE SO BUSY ): ): ):
but o6 celebrated my birthday during chalet and it was awesome (:

and on 18oct, kong, denyse, yuwei and i met up!!! at westmall == LOL. and we ate pastamania!! HAHAHAHA!!! reminded us of gabriel. LOL. we had lots of fun!! it was like, we've never been separated before, we could talk and laugh at everything!!! this is what i call true friendship. hehehe. and we zilian-ed alot. LOL. got kong, confirm zilian alot one la.

&&i'm really happy to read their tumblr and find out that they really treasure our friendship and had fun being around with each other. it makes me feel special!! BESTFRIENDS FOREVER OK!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS (':

then on the 25oct, i met up with zhen and loo!!! hehehe. i'm really glad that i'm still in contact with my friends. so, before zhen came, loo and i went to the clementi blocks to take photos. 40storey eh!!! COOL TTM!!! (: though the view wasn't very nice LOL.
and seriously, we zilian-ed alot alot alot HAHAHAHA (:

(it's really a pity that lai and mel are no longer as close to us ): )

and today, yuwei went to my blog and she told me she cried when she saw their faces on my blog (: (: (: i'm so touched!!! i'm so glad she appreciate it (: (: (: LOVE YOU LOTS!!!!!!!!

and i don't know why, its like, sad period now or something. everyone's so sad. perhaps its due to the rain. it made everyone gloomy. AND I HAVE NO MOTIVATION TO GO TO SCHOOL!!! WHYYYYYYY ): ): ): i'm not excited for anything ): IT SUCKS. i have to find a motivation soon!!!!! LIKE REAL SOON!!!

LOVE YOU GUYS!! BYE!!!

Tick Tock;

2011-09-20T22:49:00.001+08:00

man, i'm missing alot of things now.
I MISS CRUISE!!! i miss having to decide what to do next. i miss deciding with o6! its like, we're a family (:

A Simple Meal;

2011-09-20T22:17:00.001+08:00

ahhh, i'm starting to miss having lunch in school.
miss how we always complain about having to decide what to eat everyday.
i miss the western food and the western food auntie (ok, maybe not the auntie) in fc6!!
i miss sitting by the pool outside fc5!!
i miss the taiwan cuisine in fc4!! ):

had the urge to take a photo on a patch of green land with you;

2011-09-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

omggggg, why i always get things that are always on the fence one!! make me so hard to decide!!

Chinese get a freaking A2, not good but not bad either == then now gpa 3.563, don't know whether i should apply for diploma plus. then my hair also not long not short, don't know whether should tie or not. KNS MUCH == !!!

i had another really awesome dream;

2011-09-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

YAY!!

last night i dreamt that ... alright, i can't remember now ==

Just A Kiss;

2011-09-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

hmm. so i had a rather interesting dream last night. hehehe.

i dreamt that all of us were on cruise again!!! XD
and its really everyone, not just DTRM, even my ctss clique and ntps clique!! hehehe. really hope it'll come true (:

O-O

2011-09-16T21:40:00.001+08:00

OMG JONATHAN'S HAIR. HAHAHAHAHAHA

You're the kind of friend i'll never want to lose;

2011-09-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!! (:

went east coast park to cycle yesterday. hehehe. not alot of people went, but ohwell! it was fun! (:
so, meiwen, yingying, weiqi, fabian and i went yesterday. AND RIGHT, IT DIDN'T RAIN!!!!!!! THANKS SO MUCH!!! I PRAYED AND IT WORKED!! (: (: (: (:
hehehe.

soooo, i met yingying and meiwen first at commonwealth and we were like earlier than expected. lol. was going to raffles to meet weiqi, but then yingying suggested we go bedok instead. lol. so i called weiqi to inform her. then she told me she's going straight to ecp. HAIYA. HAHAHAHA i'm a bad organizer ):

so we reached ecp's mac and no one was there yet. o.o hahaha. and we went toilet, bought lunch then sat down to eat. OK I'M TRACING BACK TO WHAT WE DID. HAHAHAHA.

eat halfway, weiqi came!! (:
then fabian came! then cause when he came, weiqi wasn't there. then he sat on her seat, then meiwen and i was like O_O HAHAHAHA. then he was like, o.o???? what? LOL. then when weiqi came back, he was like, OH WALAO, WHY NEVER TELL ME, ASSHOLE. then meiwen was like, WE ARE BUTTCHEEKS. WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! SO RETARDED!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!

then meiwen asked fabian, "you eat already?" then fabian said, "chi bao liao"
then meiwen was like, "i ask you in english you reply me in chinese for what!" HAHAHAHA RETARDED DE MAN!
then after awhile, he stood up and went to buy food == SERIOUSLY. he bought the horlicks mcflurry. LOL. then he eat until like damn xinku. LOL. that morning, yazhen just told me it taste nice eh! LOL. then yingying was like, you wanna try. then he turn the cup over to show me. UHHHHH, it looks funny. LOL. then weiqi was like, "to let xinyi eat, must wait for it to melt one" HAHAHAHA AWWW, SO CUTE SIA SHE, SHE KNOWS XD
then meiwen was like, bring to the hand dryer to melt la ==!!! HAHAHA

and so, after he finished eating, we went to rent our bikes!!! (: HEH. so we were like, deciding whether we want double bike or all single, cause meiwen wanted double. BUT, no one there had confidence to double with her! yingying is a beginner, weiqi say she'll ride in to the grass, and OBVIOUSLY, i can't. HAHAHA. so we asked fabian, then he said, if he sit in front, the bike would be unbalanced, with the front slanted downwards. AHAHAHA!!! SERIOUSLY DAMN FUNNY. HAHAHAHA!!!!

ok. fine.

then we went to rent bikes and started our journey!! (:
cause yingying is still a beginner, she kept falling off the bike, losing balance. HAHA! funny, but she's trying really hard. (: PROUD OF HER!!! and everyone was quite good too! but...we all expected fabian to be better though. AHAHHA

then yingying kept falling, so everyone just stopped to like, LOOK at her. then meiwen couldn't stand it, she went down to teach her. actually cycling really can't teach one la. must learn to balance. hahaha. then fabian was like, "at this speed right, at 6pm we'll still not reach the jetty"
BUT AH. WE DID EH. WE EVEN WENT ALL THE WAY TO CHANGI!!!! OMGGGGGGGG!!! SO COOL RIGHT!!! and I DIDN'T FALL AT ALL!!! GOOD GRACIOUS!! XD LOVE MYSELF. HAHAHAHA WTH.

then when we reached changi, fabian went ahead first to see whether there's any coffee shop nearby. cause yingying needed a drink. then cause she fell, there were scratches and she had to wash it, though i already let her wash alittle with my water. hahaha. then when fabian went off, weiqi said he looked like a bull. HAHAHA SO MEAN. anywaysxsxs!!

typing all this reminds me of gerald. hahaha. and huiying (: cause we went cycling together. and it reminds me of how gerald would always turn back if we're too slow. LOL PAISEH BUT OHWELL. and its like, ah nevermind.

then after we rode back to return our bikes, we went to the beach. hahaha. then the 5 of us just stood there by the water like statues. HAHAHA. then i started picking up rocks and wanted to make it skip. AH PHAIL. HAHAHAHAHA. i'm sure gerald can do it! and i kept comparing fabian with gerald. ehm..

then in the end, we played WHO CAN THROW THE FURTHEST == i'm like...sibei loser. HAHAHAHA. no wonder i'm called lauxinyi aka lousy. LOL. then i threw then it ended damn near. HAHAHAHA!! then yingying was like, you all hear wrongly liao. the competition is who can throw nearest. LOLOLOL WTH. ohwell, after some events, which i can't describe in words, we decided to go wash our legs and went to take bus.

ehm. so weiqi and yingying had to go home earlier, then fabian went parkway parade, meiwen&i went changi!!! HAHAHA. and we freaking got lost. LOLOLOL WTH. so we got off bus15, took bus 87 from some super ulu bus stop, and went back to bedok. LOL PHAIL SIA WE. then took train to changi.
had macs. WTH RIGHT. GO CHANGI EAT MACS. LOLOL. but changi's toilet very clean. HAHAHA. then meiwen wanted to rate the cleanliness of the toilet, but kinda failed. then the janitor told her to press harder. LOL!

and we had HTHT at macs. BUT I REALLY DISLIKE THEIR SERVICES. SO JUDGMENTAL HAIS. ohwell. then our HTHT mainly revolved around one person. FABIAN. HAHAHAHA. joke. but i really enjoyed my day. hehehe.

LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!!

and edwin!! you're the kind of friend i'll never want to lose.
and i really really want to treat every guy like how i treat edwin. but, its really hard ): wonder why... :z

Wishing Well;

2011-09-14T15:52:00.001+08:00

wishing well. yea man, wish for good stuffs. hahaha, cause wishes do come true (:

i wished that i would meet more people who are like me. and indeed, i did. hehehe.

Reminiscence;

2011-09-13T21:30:00.001+08:00

reminiscence is the act or process of recalling past experiences, events, etc.
HAHAHAHA copied from dictionary.com
HEHEHE

ANYWAYSXSXS!! i just realised i've never gone cycling with kong before!!! ): then we can't compare our skills. DAMN. HAHAHAHA

and i haven't organise a basketball outing like i promised nicolette!! ):

and i haven't gone around singapore trying all the food with kong! ): wow, we said that when we were sec2 o.o
i still remember the time we went queensway shopping centre!! and your tutu kuay. HAHAHAHA and i remember i took a video of you eating. LOL WEIRD.

i still remember the times i took bus home with yazhen and jingyi. and how they know i like sitting at the lower deck. AHAHHA but yazhen always take my favourite seat == HAHAHAHA

and yuwei!!! us always missing our buses == and honey and bee!! XD

denyse!!! singing and dancing outside AVA room and doing weird hand signs during choir. HAHAHA and your tree fans. LOL

mel, your ginormous eyes. LOL and you always saying you hate me ):

jiexin! the most matured among us all. hehehe. i appreciate that you would share your problems with me. it makes me feel like, you trust me. AND REALLY SORRY I CAN'T WORK WITH YOU!! ):

hais. things we did and took for granted...are all memories now. i hoped i recorded most of the things down on this blog, or recorded it in our hearts. (:

i'll treasure every moment i'm going through now! regardless with my family, old friends, current friends, or even nice strangers who just pass us by. HAHAHAHA EMOTIONAL.

LOVE YOU LOTS PEOPLE!!!!! (: <3

Zoo;

2011-09-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

EDWIN TAN! I MISS YOU!!!! AHAHAHAH

ok so, last night, i had a super super cool dream. LOL. i dreamt that i was like, sparring with my dad and some other people, with real swords or something. SUPER COOL! i actually felt the ache and pain when someone strike on me. LOLOLOL

then i dreamt that i had amazing race. there were alot of people. i saw, gerald, rachakan and some random people o.o
so what i liked most about the dream is that, i actually had the speed and strength and was so agile during the game! i could swing myself, run at the speed of light and it was really really cool! hehehe.

so, enough of my dreams.

and oh, i had my training in Ritz Carlton today for the beverage thing during the F1 race. hehehe. suppose to be from 3pm to 6pm. but we ended at 4. LOL so retarded.

so aaron and i met at promenade at 230, but we were both early. so we went to the security early and they were like, oh, we can only go in at 3 since we were suppose to have training at 3 ==
then so, we went to marina and aaron had long john. was kinda awkward then. LOL. but somehow we had something to say. LOL which is good. like, yea. hmm..

then we went back and had our training. we were kinda expecting that we would be able to have hands on la, but instead it was like a lecture. AND THEIR ENGLISH IS DAMN...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! ok. AND!! there are SO MANY things to remember!!! ): different cups for different drinks...different drinks with different amount. CHEY. SO MAFAN. HAHAHAHA but it sounds so totally fun!!! i'm really looking forward to it man! hehehe. and our working time is like, 3pm to 5am. O.O LOL. at first aaron thought its from 3pm to 5pm. LOL?!

anyways, it felt really nice being with aaron. he's like a big brother. hahaha. i feel protected beside him. like, i'm sure he would take care of me. hehehe. WE CHOSE THE RIGHT CHAIRPERSON, o6!!!! (:

anyways, it had been a great day. hope it had been an awesome day for you guys too!!!

HELLO YAZHEN!!!!! AND HUIYING!! AND WHOEVER THAT'S READING THIS!! <3

BFF;

2011-09-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

do you feel what i feel?
do we still think the same thing?
do you still remember what we use to do?
do you still remember what we promised each other?

this blog serves as a reminder. of everything we've done together.

Tell Me Why;

2011-09-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

and oh yea! i dreamt of jon last night == LIKE AGAIN?!?!!?

so i dreamt that we went uni or something. then its like, i organised a birthday party for him. haha. heh. kinda sad de feeling. hmm. BUT RIGHT, don't know why. in my dream, i know he is jonathan, but don't look like him eh. look like P.SHONE instead. HEH.

alright, this is stupid.

Once in a Blue Moon;

2011-09-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!!!
hehehe. HI YAZHEN!!! XD
ok, i'm seriously touched that you actually read my blog. HAHAHAHA WHERE'S YOUR BLOG AH?!?!?! LOL.

anywaysxxsxs!!
so, on friday, i went CYCLING with my FAMILY!!!! <3 <3 <3 alright, i still kinda suck at cycling alright ==
LOL
then moment i got on the bike, i lost balance and fell. LOLOLOL!!! the bike scratch my thigh, SIAKKKKK, one red line. LOL sibei fail de me!
but it was really fun. HAHAHA and i can feel that i improved ok!! though i still take quite some time to start my engine ==

then so, we cycled to the jetty!!! WOO YAY!! the weather was awesome too!! XD
psssss, my mum fell twice while cycling. OOSH ): guess that's why i kinda suck at cycling &SPORTS HAHAHAHA & we had mcdonalds for lunch!!!

FILET-O-FISH WITH EXTRA TARTAR SAUCE!!! ok, this is my first time trying extra tar tar sauce, andddddddd, its....well, i think i still prefer the normal amount of tartar. HAHAHA too much makes me feel so fat ): LOL. AND WHY DOES CHEESE BURGER LOOK SO NICE BUT I CAN'T EAT!!!!!!????? ):

oh. then we went the other way down the road. BTW, WE WERE AT EAST COAST. HAHAHAHA

then when we had to u-turn, i fell again. LOL THE BIKE LOST BALANCE!!! ELSE IT WOULD BE A PERFECT TURN!!! ): I U-TURN-ED PERFECTLY AT THE JETTY OK!!! ):
then when i u-turn and fell right, there was an ahgong and ahma sitting. then i kinda scared them when i fell cause they were like O: HAHAHAHAHA SORRY AH!!
when i fell, i kinda scraped my knee and my toes. DAMN MAN. HAHAHAHAHA but its like, cycling without falling is not cycling right!!! HEHEHEHE

AND OH! SATURDAY!!! WE WENT TO WATCH SMURFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!! AWESOME MOVIE!!! TOTALLY CUTE AND MEANINGFUL OK!
"when the house gets bigger, the distance between us increase too" TRUE MUCH HEHEHE

I SMURF YOU!!!! <3

oh, webcam-ed with gerald the other nights. heh, awkward much. LOL. but its like, kinda cool HAHAHAHA ehmm. yea. awkward. LOL. shall remind myself. FRIENDS JUST FRIENDS ALRIGHT!! yep. hehehe.

so yea, the jc people are going to have their promos soon. hmm. interesting. JIAYOU PEOPLE!!! (:

SMURF YOU GUYS ALOT ALOT!!! (:

WE ARE FAMILY;

2011-09-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! I'M BACK FROM A 4D3N CRUISE TO PENANG AND PHUKET!!!! DID YOU MISS ME? (:

sooooooo, the SUPERSTAR VIRGO is actually ok. like, not very fun, cause most of the things needed alot of $$$$$ GOSH MAN, KARAOKE IS LIKE $5o AN HOUR! PSSH. CRAZY.

SO 1STDAY!!
we were like in school at 9 with all the luggage and crap. lol. then we took coach to harbour front. heh, i was like really lazy to take photos. so, NO PHOTOS. then we queued like damn long to board the cruise. ohwell, boring.

thennnnnnn, we went to our cabin!! WOOHOO!! its not as dull as expected man. pretty nice. heh. there's photos on facebook! then because we had too little space for things, bernadette and crystal decided to shift our beds. HEH. so 3 of us slept on two beds joined together. and meiwen slept on the pull down bed. hehehe.

alright, honestly, 1st day is more like an orientation day on the cruise. so we listened to superrrrrrr boring speech given by our lecturers. ohman man, its like superrrrrr sian! then what did we do after that? o_o ohya, so we had a safety drill and had group games. hais, sian one.

anywaysxsxs, so we had lunch and dinner. well, not very fantastic, homecooked food is still the best!! and its super uncomfortable eating on the cruise, cause it keeps shaking/vibrating/trembling. AHYA, YOU GET THE IDEA. AND WE HAD SUPPER TOO! food's not awesome but, BEING WITH DTRMo6 IS AWESOMEEEEEEEE x23!!!!! oh oh oh! before supper we also watched a magic show in the Lido. SCARY ACTUALLY. cause they dressed as clowns and the guy kept going AHA! damn loudly ==
then cause had to wake up early tomorrow, we slept early.
bernadette, crystal and i slept on the double beds and meiwen slept on the wall bed.

2ND DAY!!
we got to tour around the cruise ship. another boring thing. nothing much to learn. but its QUITE fun, cause we got to see the galley aka kitchen. heh. then during lunch, crystal and i didn't want to eat, so we went back to our cabin to slack. JOKE I TELL YOU. HAHAHAHA! we camwhore on the ipad and laughed till we forget the time. ahahaha! then we had a casino tour, which i find rather useless. then, we got down to penang. OMG, THE PLACE DAMN BEAUTIFUL!!! the sky looks more blue and the sea looks so much clearer! so, we went to the penang's hotel to look around. KINDA FUN. hahaha, tea time was great, cause we got to take photos and all. teehee. then we went to this shopping mall like ion. WTF MAN, its like so stupid to bring us there la! do we look like we got money to buy from ion?!!?!?!
so, all we bought was like, lots of twisties and gum. LOL. wanted to eat for supper, but in the end, i didn't even eat one bag. crystal ate it all. HAHAHAHA. and we bought sushi too! gosh man, SUSHI IS AWESOME MUCH!!! :D then after like, just 45mins, we had to board the cruise again. HAIS. so little time. rush rush rush.
back on cruise, we had dinner and actually had nothing else to do. cause the show they have in the Lido is called NIKITA (i think) WHICH IS ACTUALLY A STRIPPER SHOW. chey! why would we wanna watch la! LOL. then the others went to swim, then cause jolyn, crystal, meiwen, lester and i didn't want to swim, we wanted to go see karaoke. EFF THE PRICE MAN. then the celebrity disco also had karaoke. and we only need to buy a drink to sing. BUT, its like public, not in a room. sooo, nah. we decided not to. with nothing to do, we decided to go to the pool and look for judith, cause she didn't swim too. HEH, THE OTHERS LOOK LIKE THEY HAD ALOT OF FUN IN THE POOL MAN! THE JACUZZI LOOK SOOOOOOO SHIOK!! OMG.
then we went to the deck to slack and chill. WOOOOO!! I LOVE THE WIND MAN I TELL YOU!!! XD I SUPER SUPER SUPER LOVE THE DECK. ITS LIKE SUPER AWESOME!!! it was like, a perfect area for DTRMo6 to bond!
so we played cards, damn fun! we (jolyn, aaron, crystal, lester, gillian(?) then junwei joined later) played this swapping card game, and the losers had to place their hands on the floor and the winner have to smack it. kinda like, HEARTATTACK(the game) and oh, the guys were also dancing DO IT LIKE A DUDE. LOL! JOKE. quite nice actually (:
then junwei and martin were like playing on our ipad. then the wallpaper of our ipad is like a super distorted face of mine. JUNWEI'S REACTION DAMN FUNNY, HE WAS LIKE, WTF?!?! HAHAHAHAHA!!!! WHAT! MY FACE SIA!!
then we had supper, SUPER ROCKY NIGHT I TELL YOU. cause it was actually raining! so it was like super cold. LOL HEH. alright, i don't really remember what happens next == i think we went to sleep cause next day must wake up early AGAIN ==

3RD DAY!!
after breakfast, we had to disembark liao, going to PHUKET!! OMG, I LOVE THE RESORT I TELL YOU. the scenery is reallyyyyyyyy beautiful!!! OMG. so we tour around the resort...WA, SUPER WARM DE LOR!! then after that, we went back to bathe and all to get ready for gala night! PSSH. stupid gala night, need to wear dress == anywaysxsxsx! so dinner was super awkward. our table included MARTIN, RYAN, BERNADETTE, MEIWEN, CRYSTAL AND ME. HAHAHAHA. yingying said we are the QUIETPEOPLE. LOL. so our table was really damn quiet. like never talk one. LOL!! ANYWAYSXSXS! then the class went to watch some acrobatics show in the Lido. but meiwen, crystal and i went back to the room to slack. JOKE I TELL YOU. MEIWEN PLAY THE IGOBEAT ON IPAD IS DAMN FUNNY. HAHAHAHAHAHA! WE HAVE A VIDEO OF IT. XD
after the show, they called and we joined them outside the Lido for phototaking. XD after that, the girls all went back to our cabins to change out of our dresses while the guys stayed at the top deck.
staying at the deck would only upskirt us! AHAHAHAH!! ><
after that, we went back to the deck but the wind was too strong so we couldn't do anything there. cards would fly away. so we all went back to our cabin. hais!
and somehow, they all decided to ton in our cabin. o_o guess our room is the only one with lots of space! XD
actually, not everyone ton-ed. at first everyone came to our room, ate and talked and all. then judith and emalia went back first cause judith wasn't feeling well, so melissa tagged along too. and martin was damn tiao, cause he was like, READING on our bed. HAHAHA. and i told him to go to the toilet to read. LOL. and then...we were like betting on who would sleep next. AND IT ENDED UP WITH...MARTIN!!! XD like, duh la. READING MAKES YOU SLEEP OK! XD THEN AFTER MARTIN WAS....MEIWEN!!!! hais, suckers. LOL KIDDING. then after her was bernadette. surprise they can actually sleep in the room which is soooo warm AND NOISY. HAIS. PIGS. LOLOL! so left with, the MONOPOLY DEAL GANG AND US. AHAHAHA!
monopoly deal gang = FABIAN, LESTER, JUNWEI, AND AARON.
US = GILLIAN, YINGYING, CRYSTAL, ME, JOLYN.
joey, audric and ryan didn't even come into our room. joey was sleeping, ryan say nothing to eat, audric wanted to sleep. so, YEA. HAIS. LOLOL.
at around 450, junwei and fabian went to sleep in their cabin. yingying slept awhile too. WOAH, SHE BREATHE DAMN LOUD, SNORING. LOLOL. GILLIAN KOON TOO. AARON ALSO AT THE END.
so, jolyn, lester, yingying(after she woke up), crystal and i decided to go to the deck to see sunrise. BUT, it was too foggy that we saw NOTHING. LOL. then this man with dslr came and told us that he haven't been able to see sunrise for the past 3 days. PFFT. LOUSY. HAHAHAHA. ohwells, so we had nothing to do. went to see what the breakfast is like at the Galaxy of Stars. only served muffins and some weird bun. yingying took one muffin. LOL. then we all went back to cabin AGAIN. lol! like no use one sia.
after that, crystal and i decided we should just go to sleep. LOL. so we slept for one hour then had to wake up for some briefing. STUPID BRIEFING I TELL YOU. MORE THAN HALF OF THE DTRM PEOPLE WERE NOT THERE OK. == STUPID!!! @#$%^
afterwards, they went to play basketball. hahaha. cold only i tell you. play for about an hour? then it started raining, so we had to go back inside. hais. then what did we do?
OHYA. the guys went back to the cabin, left with martin, bernadette, meiwen and i waiting outside the mediterranian buffet. crystal didn't feel like eating, so she went back with yingying. so the four of us sat at the stairs and waited. suddenly some indian man and a toddler daughter came to us and requested to take a photo with us. i don't know if we misinterpreted him or what la. but we took a photo with the daughter anyway. SO RANDOM!!! HAHAHA! felt like a superstar for a few minutes. HAHAHA!!! scarley he actually wanted to take a photo of just his daughter at the stairs. LOLOLOL JOKE.
so after yingying and the guys came back, we went into the restaurant. somehow, martin, bernadette, meiwen and i ended up at the same table. HAHAHA. thought its gonna be awkward again, but i couldn't stop laughing!!!
bernadette was sooooo calm at everything, she didn't even laugh once!! but it felt good cause martin laughed with us. usually he just -.- us one lor! HEH. and i laughed so much that i couldn't finish my food. actually the shaking of the cruise did make it difficult to eat. o.o
then martin was like saying, i would never finish my food cause everytime i pick up my spoon, i would start laughing again. LOL!!! that's true!!
then when i stopped laughing for awhile, i quickly stuffed the food inside my mouth. HEH.

oh oh oh! we were also gossiping about HORSIE and SQ. LOL. we all think SQ like HORSIE. HAHAHA. which is actually quite obvious la! LOL. that night when we had bbq dinner by the pool, yingying they all sat at one end and HORSIE they all sat at the other end ma. then when SQ came back right, she went directly to HORSIE'S side and sat next to him eh. OMG RIGHT. HAHAHAHA. then that night at the deck we were also like, asking her about her opinions on the boys. like what's her type and all. LOL. hmm. can see that she has a good impression on fabian! HAHAHAHA!!
then during lunch that day. yingying asked HORISE whether he guessed who like him already not. then he say cannot. yingying asked them to guess. then lester say me. WALAO? LOL. then ryan was like, ORHH I KNOW ALREADY. LOL HMM. then aaron also say he know liao. HAHAHAHA. then yingying told HORSIE. ok. yingying haven't tell me the whole story la. but yea, it sounds pretty interesting. HAHAHAHAHA.

alright. this is a super super super long post. o_o
SO, ALL I WANT TO SAY IS.

though this trip is really short and we wasted quite alot of time during the tours and all, but i can feel that DTRMo6 is getting much closer. though there was actually some conflict in what to do (fabian they all like pissed over who wanna go play ball and who wanna swim o_o)
DTRMo6 is like a family now. we take care of one another. HEH. awesome feeling. hope its gonna last long (:
I LOVE DTRMo6!!!! BEST CLASS EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

CAPS LOCK;

2011-08-25T13:06:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! DAMN LONG NEVER UPDATE LE!

so OH yingying just asked me whether i have a blog, so i decided to revive it again!! XD

so, we're like having exams now. hahaha. STATS IS CRAZY!! ):

anywaysxsxs, i'm actually very glad to be in o6. my classmates are all nice, caring, and nice people!!

LOL

and so... i'll cherish them. i know, 3years are going to pass us by really quickly. like water flowing pass pebbles. OMG SO CHIM. HAHAHAHA!!

ohwells.

so yea, yesterday i dreamt that i went grocery shopping and gerald was with me! LOL WTH. so he bought stuffs with me and helped me carry. AWW, SO NICE AH. HAHAHAHA!!

then last night, i dreamt of primary school. hahaha. ok, i kinda forgot what happened already ):

sooooo, yea. i'll try to update more! LIFE HAD BEEN GREAT! IT DOESN'T SUCK ANYMORE!! ><

so, cruise!!! gosh, i'm so looking forward to it. XD

BYE PEOPLE!!!

friends (:

2011-07-24T23:28:00.002+08:00

omg, i so feel like crying now. ):

so many friends are like kinda stressed and i wanna stay by their sides and comfort them. i just think that they need me. do you?

aww, i miss those days where we were all together. AND THE SONG GRADUATION IS SOOOOOOOOO...

will we still be friends when we're 25? will we still talk to each other?

anywayxsxsx, i just wanna let you guys know that, i'll be there when you guys need me. i'll lend you my shoulder so you'll know that you're not alone.

emotional post. haha.

BE HAPPY FRIENDS!!! <3

HELLO PEOPLE

2011-07-10T22:09:00.001+08:00

cough cough. so many people falling sick nowadays ):

had fever on friday. took one panadol then ok liao. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? MUST I RECOVER SO FAST?! i was like hoping i won't recover so fast so i don't have to go to school ):

but i'm still having cough and like, sexy voice. AHAHAH. ohwells. i like falling sick. not that i like the feeling of falling sick. its that, when you're sick, everyone would care about you. so sweet (: (: (: you'll feel special. AND, hehehe, people will help you do some things. like chores. HAHAHAHA. ok la, kidding. LOL. ohwell.

HOPE EVERYONE WOULD BE HEALTHY AND STRONG!!! BE HAPPY ALWAYS PEOPLE!!!

xoxo, xinyi (:

life is like shit when you feel like shit DUH

2011-07-06T19:44:00.002+08:00

HI PEOPLE!!!

hehehe.

i seriously feel really fortunate that i've so many great friends around me (: YES I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU!!! XD

anywaysxsx, i seriously hate gen ed mannnnnnnnnn. WALAOOOOOOOO. CAN JUST LIKE GET RID OF THAT STUPID MODULE NOT!?!!!?!?!?! WALAO EHHHHHHHH. hais.

and its like, its always so much easier to see other people living their lives then to live our own life ): HAIS. its like, how they go through all those stuffs they don't like one?! how they manage it? how they deal with people when they don't like them?! HAIS. LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. UGHHHHHHH. I'M SO AGITATED NOW!!!! ):

why am i so pathetic ):

2011-07-05T22:09:00.002+08:00

hais. i don't know if its just me or what ==!!!

i keep dreaming of people i shouldn't be dreaming of ):

that night, i dreamt of AHUM and RAC. LOLOL. abit funny de. cause we were in school or something, then they were having some party or something. then i went with my friend. THEN AHUM CHASED ME OUT KNOW!! WALAO!! i was like, damn sad only ): but he's like super vulgar and weird la, so i don't like him liao. LOL. but can't help it, i'll still KIEW when i see him. LOL.

THEN RIGHT, last night, i dreamt of J. ==!!! WTH. i dreamt that i was like, messaging him, like last time. HAIYER. irritating dream. then i dreamt that my sis poked a needle at my butt. injection. WTH. i could actually feel the pain ok! ): SUCKS MUCH.

ahhhhh, i wanna go kbox + cycling!!! ): heh, 6honesty is planning a chalet. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. hope there will be alot of people. AND SERIOUSLY, please be fun (:

cont'd

2011-06-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

OHYEA. went for the duck tour with family today. TEEHEE. cool experience. (:

then we went for buffet lunch at swissotel's jaan/whatever its called. the one at the 71st storey. SUPER COOL BABY!!! XD

the food was awesome!!! XD

I LOVE SALMON TTM!!!

and we went suntec to shop. i bought a few formal clothes for school. SPEND FARQING ALOT TODAY!!! ):

then opposite iora was anderson's icecream. then there was this guy queuing for icecream. he kinda looked like AHUM. lol. ohyea, i don't like AHUM anymore. LOL. i decided to stop thinking about this kinda things for a period of time. teehee.

then the guy is like, super kiddish!! like, so cute!! i mean his actions, not his looks.

he was like, AUNTIE!! *mumbles while bouncing up and down against the glass casing(?)*

then he said, can i try this? then the lady let him try one spoon of the icecream. then he was like ok. then he got this cup of icecream, when he got it, he was like SOOOOOOO SUPER HAPPY!! like, some 3yearsold kid who got to eat icecream for the first time. LOL. maybe he had been saving the money for a year or something? HAHAHAHA.

did i mention he actually looked as old as i am?

i wanna be invisible;

2011-06-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

CAMP IS REALLY TIRING ):

I'M REALLY NOT THE CAMP TYPE OF PERSON LAAAAA. NO MORE CAMPS PLEASE.... ):

ok, so, we had a 2days camp. teehee. no overnight. OHYEA!

so first day, we had like, icebreakers and some games. icebreakers were ok. like, i was kinda involved and all. then games. wa, super disgusting only lor. we had to like crawl across the mat of soya sauce and don't know what leftover food. o.o gross only! but the other games were ok. we played captain ball in the pool. i think that's the only fun game liao lor. HAHA. haisssss.

next day, amazing race. JUST KILL ME MAN. had to run like mad. UGH!!! i hate this kinda thing. cause, yea, i can't run. HAHAHA. then so we went sentosa for the race. and we ended up the last group. hmm. o.o SORRY MAN.

ahhh, the more i blog the more i feel like a loser/sucker.

then for gala night, our class danced. ehhh, i think i'm very tiao and weird and awkward and kns. but everyone else was amazing!!! the video is on youtube!!

LINK: http://youtu.be/CM0omgPjVso

anyway, so. it was KINDA...fun. kinda making me feel like a total idiot as well. know the feeling when you have to do something you really suck at? yea. ==!!!

and oh! i had a super cool dream last night. lol. i kinda wish its real. TEEHEE!!!

HI PEOPLE;

2011-06-18T21:58:00.002+08:00

so, was talking to sis about LIFE. LOLOLOL!!!

and so, we were talking about relationships. hais.

why are those people in stories so different from real life? its like, the author(the girl) is saying that she's not very pretty and all, then in the end, she'll end up with the hottest guy in school ==!!! but what i envy the most is that, when the guy talks to her, she'll actually answer him so properly. if its me, i'll be stuttering la. i think the most i can make out is, HAHA. ==!!! i suck. LOL.

then its like, in stories, when a guy and a girl quarrel, they'll end up as couples. in real life, when a guy and a girl quarrel, they will never talk to each other again == HAHAHAHAHA. nicolette says its possible. i don't really think so.

then in the stories, they'll have those girl-next-door/boy-next-door kinda thing? the childhood couple kinda thing? hehehe, like so sweet only. BUT. in real life? hais. the guys next door are either freaking old, freaking weird, or freaking obsessed with computer games. LOL. seriously, singapore is kinda boring. but right, if i'm ever born in America, i don't think i will ever survive. Americans are all super enthusiastic! i'll the stupid nerd in one corner. perhaps never noticed. wow, that's definitely worst than in singapore. LOL. ohwell.

i kinda think this post is abit stupid. BUT COMEON, DON'T YOU AGREE?! HAHAHAHA.

and nicolette and i were like talking about, what if we're left on the shelves? HAHAHAHA. joke! i hope i won't!! LOL. but i'm not desperate. hehehe. being single is fun (: don't have to worry so much. and right! i'm happily waiting for the right one for me. i want the guy to love me as much as i love him. cause in shows right, i find those girls so stupid when they sacrifice so much for the guy and the guy doesn't appreciate it ==!!! HOW 'BOUT TRYING TO BE A GIRL HUH!!! LOL.

ohwell. OHHHHH. CAMP COMING!!! i wanna die ==!!! but at least i'm in the same group as crystal. hahaha. lets try to survive together!!! i'm really scared when i pull the whole group down during games. and i'm scared i can't get along well with my new mates. OMG. WHAT IF THEY HATE ME!? ): but why would they? o.o

AND OMG!!! IMAGINE AHUM IS SAME GROUP AS ME!? i won't be able to concentrate at all man!!! AHHHH!!!!

TOODLES!

when the rain is falling down;

2011-06-16T10:40:00.003+08:00

lol ok. so this dream is super retarded de!! hahahaha. cause got kong and zhen. XD it's so retarded i was actually laughing in my sleep. HAHAHAHA.

so it started out with me in ntps. i don't really remember what happened la, but i guess i happened to be some facilitator for some camp or something? lol. so we were in the hall with all the primary school kids. then i threw my bag on the floor and went to help this little boy, then when i went back, my bag is gone. so i looked around frantically and saw denyse carrying it, walking towards to canteen.

know the path leading from the hall to basketball court to canteen?!! YEA!! THAT ROAD!!! omg, i totally miss old ntps ): ): ):

then so, i followed her to the canteen. then when i reached right, i saw yazhen and yuwei on the grass. o.o?!! HAHAHA. then yuwei was screaming for help then i went over and she's like rolling in this hole. SHE WAS IN HER PJC'S UNIFORM EH. and yazhen was under this wooden table, giving her that CHEEKY SMILE. i was like, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU GUYS DOING?!!?! HAHAHAHA!!! then i pulled yuwei out and she looked like she had fun. LOL. WTH.

then we sat around the wooden table. KNOW THE WOODEN TABLE AT STUDY CORNER? HEHEHE. then denyse, kong, yuwei, zhen and i started drinking tea around the table. weird. then i was like, lets put the tea cups together then pour, like how they does it on tv. then don't know why, we found that funny and we started laughing like crazy. HAHAAH!! and i was really laughing irl. WTH. HAHAHAHAHA. miss those days when we laughed like mad for nothing. hehehe.

then i saw rachakan with another girl on his lap. wtf. lol.

then irl, the thunder was so loud, i woke up. but i forced myself to go back to sleep.

THEN, i dreamt that i was making bread. so i was in my parent's room with my sis & bro. then i started twisting this super colourful dough. it actually felt more like, Plasticine/sticky sweet before it hardened/ clay. lol. then i was twisting it like how people make ramen/noodles. LOL. then i kept twisting then it suddenly turned into a shape of a penguin. & it actually looks like a stuff toy penguin y'know! with all the features and colours on him. o.o then i went outside, can't wait to bake it. hehehe. then somehow, my house's lights were spoilt & dad had replaced it with this light that looks like an air-con. then when i switched on the "lights", water kept coming out from the "lights" & it wet the entire floor. ==!! then i kinda got pissed and forgot about my dream.

SO YEA. end of dream. cool right! but retarded. hehehe.

and oh, i added my tagboard back. DO TAG WHEN YOU VISIT!!! (:

Miss You;

2011-06-15T12:50:00.002+08:00

some said, when you dream of someone, it means the person miss you. AWW, I WISH MAN!!! cause that day i dreamt of jonghyun and taemin! HAHAHAHA! and i laid on jjong's back!! OMG MUCHHHHHH!!!

wahahaha, bet you're so jealous of me now. XD

hehehe, so last night, i dreamt of rachakan and jonathan. you miss me ah? HAHAHAHA WTH BHB. :z kidding luh.

so, the dream :

it started off with weird creatures outside my house. felt like the end-of-the-world kinda feeling. hahaha. and those things were like trying to come in and attack us ): so, my whole family hurried and locked all the windows. then suddenly, i ended up in this school and we had to do some weird projects. then i was on the top of the stairs then i jumped+float down to where jiexin, jingyi, yazhen, mel they all are and landed on the ground nicely. WOO!!! HAHAHAHA! then jiexin went to buy a snack from the vending machine beside us. OH! i'm starting to realise the place kinda look like the area beside sp fc6!!! HAHAHA. oh, the i pulled this empty box out from the machine, it was empty so i stuffed it back in, then JASMINEWONG saw me and she thought i was littering ==!!!!!! FML. then i don't know why, my leg started bleeding. lol. there was this small hole under my knee. SUPER DEEP EH! DAMN EWW. then JASMINEWONG wrapped a towel around my knee. SO UGLY!! ):

then i went to this hall where we're suppose to do our project. so, for our project, we're suppose to be using blocks to make some structure that represents some country. gosh, that sounds like the DBE project i'll be having. o.o so, we were actually doing on thailand. then RACHAKAN was there!!!! (: hehehe. so was khoi.

then the spot on my leg started bleeding like crazy again, so i ran to the toilet. & OMG, the toilet damn weird. almost all the walls are made of mirrors. and its like a freaking maze. super dizzy when you're inside. and i couldn't find the tap to wash my leg == then i finally found it & i got out to sit on this bench behind the canteen. I DON'T KNOW WHERE THAT CANTEEN IS, ITS NOT CTSS NOR NTPS, NOR SP'S CANTEEN. LOL. then i saw jonathan's malay friend. wa, his face super clear de man. distinctive. lol. then i held my leg up to clean it, then jon and his friends carried this bench over and we kinda met each other's gaze. AWKWARD MUCH!!! O_O then so, i just turned and walked away, like what i'll do in real life. then i went back to the hall and now they're working on Phillipines (?). then i sat down with laikuan behind me and huiying in front. then suddenly some weirdo drove this truck into the hall and nearly bumped into us ):

then i woke up. LOL. weirdddddddddddddd dreammmmmmmmmm. hahaha.

but since dreams won't come true, i guess its ok. hahaha. but it got me wondering, how jon is. AHHHH. STOP THINKING OF HIM. ah, anyway, most dreams that you remember distinctively won't come true one. except for those, which you kinda forgot already. YEA, DEJA VU KINDA THING. HAHAHAHA! like, that day during dtrm06 bbq!!!

ohwell, thats all for together. hahaha. i guess there are only two readers for my blog sia. yazhen and huiying. HAHAHA THANKS!!! (:

your world is also my world;

2011-06-08T22:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i think i think too much about myself. and i forgot to think about others. i complain about my life, and i forgot that people around me might also be facing the same things ): its so shitty.

AND OH, I TOOK OUT MY BRACES TODAY!!! feels funny. hahaha. like really. i hope... actually i don't know what i'm looking for. what, putting braces doesn't make you prettier does it?

if only this world is a kinda world where girls do not put on make up, do not wear skimpy clothes or something. then people can look at people with real beauty. ok, i kinda got this thingy from tumblr. lol. and it doesn't sound that nice cause i kinda rephrased it. lol.

oh oh, i feel seriously bad. like, when i think too much about myself, i forgot about others. then its like, when my friends tell me about things in the past or like how they feel, then i'll feel like, shit man, i've thinking about myself too much that i kinda forgot to care about how THEY feel ): i'm so sorry. i think i'm a pretty bad friend. ):

come to think about it, not going overseas is not a very bad idea (except i've to go camp ==)

cause, firstly, i get to go to the art&crafts thing at paper market with yuwei and denyse!! (i hope yuwei haven't found someone in my place)

second, i get to bond with the class. (which is during camp so its still a turn off)

ahhhh!! this sucks. something bad always goes with the good ): and why do we always get affected more by the bad than the good? ):

oh, i feel like taking some art class. lol. like, painting (: cause in storybooks, artistic guys are always really sweet and cute. like, very my type of guy. HEHEHE XD & i really wanna draw!! ):

what did i wanna say just now? shit, i forgot ):

gtg people! love ya!

不想长大；

2011-06-08T22:24:00.002+08:00

gosh, someone that song is stuck in my head. lol.

life is seriously full of disappointments. not like there are no surprises, yes, there are, i'm glad. but still. HAIS.

so, at first my mum is like saying we can go japan for holiday. then my uncle went to check, there were no more vacancies ): so we thought of going hongkong. ok, i was desperate for going out of town because there's camp during the holiday. AND I HATE CAMPS TTM. as you may know. HAIS.

so, then she let me do the itinerary then i was like, so excited and happy and all. THEN, now she says the schedule is too tight, so we shall stay in singapore == i mean, i don't blame my mum or anything. just, plain disappointed ):

so so, i'm going to camp ): i bet meiwen had been praying damn hard for me to go camp uh. THE CAMP BETTER BE FUN!!! hais hais. nevermind. the class can then bond. == HAIS. but its still camp!!!!!! CAMP. C-A-M-P CAMP!!! ): ): ): ): ): ): wonder how those people can actually get enthu about camps. ==

ok, so i was reading this book called, "waiting for someone". romance. hehehe. makes me feel like falling in love. i mean, it just sounds so sweet. think about all the things you can do when you find the right person. (: hehehe. but then. reality is really different from fantasy. BUT ANYWAY, no harm dreaming (:

but yea, i'm really looking forward to life. SOMEHOW. lol. i hope life would be great. and that i would not regret not doing thing/doing things that i'll regret. no point regretting anywaysxsxsxsxs. (i kinda twit when i'm bored)

sometimes, i find things to be so unreal. like, when you're with your friends, laughing and joking. then afterwards, you're with your family, and the moment of you&friends just seemed like a dream. o.o this is weird. I SHOULD STOP THINKING SO MUCH!!!

nights people. i hope we can all find a purpose in life. and be optimistic about it. LIFE IS GONNA BE GREAT!!! <3

over the rainbow (:

2011-05-26T21:09:00.000+08:00

ahhhh, i feel very bad know. ):

like, the project, i never do anything de. then martin did everything ): I SERIOUSLY FEEL DAMN BAD ): hais.

waiting for you is like waiting for rain in the drought;

2011-05-24T20:21:00.001+08:00

hahaha, no la, actually i'm super happy today!!! XD

so loo and i were like texting, then don't know why, i mentioned about sec4 camp and sec3 camp. hahaha, then the tent facial mask thing. LOL. seriously, i kinda miss sec3&4 camps, though i really dread camps. lol. but it was really fun (: (: (:

then nicolette was like, "you made me smile"

AWWW. i feel great cause i made people smile (: YOU KNOW THAT FEELING?! i think its the best feeling on earth (: its much better than when your crush walks to you and say hi (: ok, that is great too. TEEHEE. then she said, "i looked like an idiot know, smiling at my phone during tutorial."

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! you're an idiot ma. XD

i like friends who treasure our friendship.

FRIENDS FOREVER PEOPLE!!

it's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do;

2011-05-23T19:57:00.002+08:00

actually i thought of a title for this post just now on the bus, but i kinda forgot. DAMN MY MEMORY ):

OH OH OH!! today is an exciting day. XD cause righttttttttttttt!!! XD

we were in the same lift as AHUM today!!! and he was like, just next to me!!! LIKE OMG!!! (: (: (: (: (: (: HEEEEEE!!! then right, when we reached our level, we were like kinda stucked, then i said to crystal, "we cannot go out sia", then he was like, "eh, you all cannot go out ah? eh! let them go out leh!" OMGGGGGGGGG!!!! TOTALLY CUTE!!! XDXDXDXD

oh, that day right, on the bus, i saw this aunty tap her ezlink card. bloody hell, $358.88. WTF?! SO MUCH FOR WHAT SIA.

ahhh, i miss taking bus rides home with lai and yazhen ): and missing buses with yuwei. hahaha. ): now i take bus home and wait for bus alone everyday. and the bus ride seems soooooo super short!! ):

i had so many things to say just now man.

OHYEA, this post is suppose to be : so near yet so far

I MEAN LIKE SERIOUSLY!!! he was like just beside me, and yet we don't even know each other ): (why do i seem to like the same kinda guy everytime ==) its like, i know him, but he don't know me. he's someone kinda special to me, but i'm a nobody to him. AWW ):

good morning earth;

2011-05-23T09:27:00.002+08:00

so last night, i did pw till 12plus and i thought i slept late. then yazhen told me she slept at 2 ==

FYL MAN. LOLOL. i seriously won't force myself to sleep so late just to do work one. lol. boliao meh. lol. ohwell.

so so. i don't remember what i wanna blog about ): so i'm now in school, suppose to do pw. == AGAIN. HAIS. i wonder what my next two years will be like. FOOD AND BEVERAGE!!! AWESOME!!! XD ohwell. then right.....ah, i forgot. teehee.

talked to yongwei on facebook yesterday. (: (: (: glad that she still remember me. AND, we could actually talk quite a lot!! rubbish though. hehehe. so she's a taohui/jellyfish. o.o confusing. LOL. and i'm a fish > pufferfish > shark. O.O LOLOLOL. ohwell.

ohhhh. i remember what i wanna blog about liao. THERE ARE SOME VERY IRRITATING PEOPLE IN THE CANTEEN! FREAKING NOISY. == OHWELL.

oh oh. i wanted to say, freak, i forgot again. AND AARON SAYS HI. LOL.

when old friends get reunited;

2011-05-21T22:23:00.002+08:00

HEY!!! i had a super nice dream last night!! but i kinda forgot the storyline ): but i know stany was in my dream!!!

AND OMG, I JUST REALISE HE'S ATTACHED TO GRACEEEEEEEE!! i feel kinda disappointed i don't know why. but ohwell, LAST LONG!!! XD

so so, yesterday was MOB presentation day!! after working hard for so long (actually we didn't work VERY hard), we finally done it! i felt that it was pretty good. i kinda made the class laugh. hehehe. not bad uh, so i was satisfied. XD

and yesterday, i met fangfang at hilltop library!!! she approached me and we took a photo. HAHAHA, super random. but OMG, ten years friends eh! and i never thought that we could be in the same school again!! can't imagine we've actually known each other for 10years! omg, so long!!! i feel so old OMG. imagine another ten years down the road. I FEEL LIKE CRYING ALREADY ):

soooo many things happened man, i can't remember much. wait...

OH, so happen that glendon knows fangfang. LOL. ohwell.

OH OH, HOLIDAY!!! we're most probably going to yuwei's club in sentosa! CAN'T WAIT!!! XD

hmm, time is passing really quickly man. but i'm really enjoying life. LOL. i wonder why. i feel really high nowadays and feel more confident speaking to others. I WONDER WHY. &&& THIS IS A GOOD THING!!! XD

we should all be happy!! cause being happy brings you luck! and there's nothing wrong with being happy, so why not be happy!!! XD sounds kinda nonsensical. LOL. did i spell that word correctly? LOL.

i really hope all my other friends are happy too (:

i think i'm sucha not sensitive kinda girl. i mean, i don't notice details, i don't put in effort to express how much i love the people around me.

i asked meiwen the other day, why she keeps thanking us over little things. then she said, "because people would like to feel appreciated"

hmm, thats so true! i never thought of that. i guess i took too many things for granted ):

AND FRIENDS, I JUST WANNA LET ALL OF YOU KNOW, YOU'RE ALL BEAUTIFUL!!! who cares about looks man. everyone is unique in their own ways man. a smile would make you pretty and beautiful. others may look down on you, but you can't look down on yourself!! cause you are you! and i love you for who you are! SO LETS ALL SMILE AND FACE ALL OBSTACLES TOGETHER!!! (:

is it me? or is it global warming?

2011-05-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

ahhhhh, damn stress!!!

stupid poly life ): with all the projects _|_

woo, i'm vulgar. lol. i didn't mean it ):

sooooo, heard yazhen and loo they all talking about their group work problems that day, it didn't occur to me that it would actually happen to me too. but yea, i'm facing this kinda problem too. HELP!!!

i mean, i've done my part, sent it to you. and then you editted the whole thing and my whole part disappeared. IS IT THAT BAD?! ugh. i mean, yea, maybe its not good. but i'm still disappointed. I WANT THIS WHOLE FREAKING THING TO END!!! ugh.

DAIKO YO!!

2011-05-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

hahaha, i seriously hate gen ed. UGH. nevermind. jiawei is weird to actually like it -,-

soooooo, went for the first official daiko training today. actually was super reluctant, cause gen ed is really crap + i had cramps again ==

but, daiko is really funnnnnn!!! BUT AH. seriously, it isn't as easy as it looks. LOL. its freaking hard. like, can't coordinate at all. LOL. but the seniors were pretty patient. hahaha. ehm.. i don't know if i wanna continue anot though ): HOW.

hais. LIFE WILL BE GOOD!!!

miss those retards alot though ):

TABASCO SANDWICH;

2011-05-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

good evening world!!

its such a tiring day today ):

went martin's house to do project today. omg...at tampines know!! omg ):

ok, so...hais. nothing interesting la. but then, talked to junwei and jolyn lor. hehe, kinda fun. lol.

but ahhh, really tired already. both physically and mentally ):

omg.... maybe i'm too influenced by kong. KONG Y U SO EMO!!! now i feel emo too. and with all the projects, its freaking tiring ): WHY MUST EVERYTHING COME DOWN TOGETHER?!

when happiness last forever;

2011-05-14T20:54:00.002+08:00

ehm.. blogger was down yesterday? OHWELL, HAD A SUPER FUN DAY YESTERDAY ON FRIDAY THE 13. XD

so so, yesterday, poa tutor didn't come/wasn't free or something, so we had 4hours break!!! AWESOME MUCH!!! so the whole class went clementi mall to eat. ah, didn't know what to eat. ohwell. wasn't reallyyyyyyyy fun. but, ah, just the starting, WE'LL BE BONDED!!! XD so so, during lunch, we were like...talking. OK NOTHING MUCH HERE. AHUM!!! XD

then went back to school. PLAYED TABOO WITH JOLYN, YINGYING, WEIQI AND CRYSTAL!!! woah, first time. IT WAS FUN MAN. we kinda...bonded alittle more. XD it was great. though it started raining, it didn't dampen our mood though XD so so. it was fun. (: hope this can happen more often :D hahaha, then jolyn lost and weiqi won, so jolyn had to like carry weiqi's bag. LOL JOKE.

OH OH!! AHUM WORE YELLOW YESTERDAYYYYYY!!! XD XD XD

then after school, went clementi with meiwen and crystal. so i went clementi twice. hahaha. THEN STUPID CTSS, ACTUALLY CALLED ME TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL TO SIGN SOMETHING. FARQ, I DON'T WANNA GO!!! ):

BOUGHT KOI!!! for the first time! not very fantastic though ): disappointed much. caramel milk tea. haha. went back into clementi mall to wait for yuwei they all to come (:

had a short htht with meiwen and crystal. then yuwei came!! kinda awkward for them i guess. lol. so after yuwei came, meiwen and crystal left. then nicolette and yazhen came. lol.

WE HAD DINNER AT BURGER KING! omg! first time too! alot of first times yesterday. hehehe. wa, the burger abit ugly and super salty ah ): BLEAH. disappointment again. HAIS. then ahhhhh, we were like looking for a spot to take photos. ZILIAN MUCH. hahaha. (oh, did i mention i met qimin and liwei before that? o.O)

then jason came to meet us. hahaha. so we photobooth-ed outside sakae. LOL. retarded ttm!!! we were like taking our funeral photos. LOL. using jason's macbook. CONCLUSION: everytime jason go out with us also damn sian for him de. LOL. sorry ah. XD so it was really nice to like meet up with friends (: (: (: WE SHOULD MEET UP EVERYDAY!!! nah, i'm just kidding. XD

ehm, although it was like a happy day, but its like, there were sad points. like, when group discussion, i'm like always outcasting myself ): FARQ ME. ahhhh. nevermind nevermind. TRY HARDER XINYIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!

DAIKO YO!!

2011-05-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

hahaha, i seriously hate gen ed. UGH. nevermind. jiawei is weird to actually like it -,-

soooooo, went for the first official daiko training today. actually was super reluctant, cause gen ed is really crap + i had cramps again ==

hais. LIFE WILL BE GOOD!!!

miss those retards alot though ):

ROCKA ROCKA ROCKA

2011-05-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

mum's in thailand now ): i miss her already ):

ohwell. today is not sucha bad day. i guess everything that happens in a day depends on how you look at it. if you're ready for a new day with an optimistic attitude, everything will turn out good. smiling brings you luck! so we should all smile everyday.

KONG AH, IF YOU'RE READING THIS. don't stress le la! and don't so emo! you make me emo too! ): you are a happy and retarded girl, continue to be that way please! if you're emo, everyone reading your blog will be emo too ):

so overall, today is a great day. not a very hot day too. XD

but i really miss mum ):

KNIFE, BEWARE

2011-05-09T20:17:00.002+08:00

ahhh, i don't know why, i feel ohsoemo again. feels like hurting myself. FEELS BIANTAI SIA. machiam sadist. LOL. but hurting oneself is really addictive. lol.

hais, i don't know sia. at first school was still kinda interesting. maybe cause its like new, so everything was exciting. week 4 liao. SIAN LIAO AH. then i feel so bad like during projects i'm like practically useless de. ): like never help. like feel really badddddd! but i don't know what to do! ):

i miss secondary school now. i wanna wear my uniform!!! ):

oh oh. i had a super weird dream last night. LOL. i dreamt of rck -,-!!! HAHAHAHA. i dreamt that he held my arm. OMG MUCHHHHHHHH!!! XD

maybe i'm kinda attracted to humpty dumpty because he kinda look like rck. lol. SIAN AH.

but today very funny! meiwen and i were like queuing for our food then this weird guy came jumping pass then he was like, "AUNTIE, WEDGES!!!" in this really ducky + high pitch voice. HAHAHAHA. then we realised its humpty dumpty. HAHAHAHA. super cute eh he! LOL. but so gay. :z NO LA. actually i only like his hair. LOL.

i think i laughed too much liao, so i'm like super tired already. ): NOOOOOOOO. don't be low!!! ):

LIFE SUCKS. FML.

i miss KONG, YUWEI, YAZHEN, DENYSE, JINGYI&MEL SOOOOOO MUCHHHH!!! ): i miss those times we went ikea, we took crazy photos in toilets, skipping choir, going to sakae and alll. ): WHYYYYYYYY.

6Honesty'06

2011-04-28T21:23:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO!!! today is a super happy sunny day. XD

so, in school, it was kinda fun. went hilltop library. lol. relaxing day actually. but stats was crap cause i totally cannot understand what the lecturer is saying. lol. then just lectures, just listen lor. XD

after schoollllll!!!! hehhehheh. went dinner with huiying, xinpei, fiona, nevin, yanhong and haresh. lol. fun siol! XD

had pastamania. eat until i wanna die ): then uhhhh, went playground. woah. haresh was like saying how we didn't recognize him. LOL. paiseh la! i was really tired ma ): then we like recalling everyone that was in 6honesty. LOL. surprisingly we could remember every single one in class eh! super cool!!! XD love 6honesty ttm man. XD

i love how we always sit at somewhere and have our own place. like, private area. feels super nice. XD super relaxing. wanted it to last forever. its like, even in silence, we won't feel awkward. XD how awesome. XD

DTRM 06

2011-04-27T19:58:00.002+08:00

teehee. i think i have an awesome class.

we're not say, very extremely bonded yet la, but we care about each other (:

today, half of the class took the lift down first and waited for the others. then when they finally reached, aaron was like, OMG you know just now when you all went in, the light of the number thing went blank eh! we were so worried that you all are like stuck inside know! then we were like, knocking and saying hello hello.

LOLOLOLOL! it's really super joke. but then like, very nice. WOO, we have an awesome class chair. XD

i still don't know what cca to join sia ): no squash liao. daiko drummers? HAHAHA. ok la, photography club. ABIT TIAO RIGHT! but then ): what else can i do la. ): ok la. see first see first. XD

i'm gay today.

2011-04-26T19:57:00.002+08:00

WOO. its a happy day today. XD

i talked to most of the people in class! and during group project i wasn't emo-ing at one corner already (: hahaha. i guess its because of aaron. he'll like, pull all of us in to participate. i tried to be more sociable also la. teehee. so it was pretty fun. and all of my classmates are like nice (: like really. they'll like talk to everyone, no isolation. its good good. and no need to present today! so its super good. XD

KINDA BRUENO;

2011-04-25T22:38:00.002+08:00

ok, actually the title is crap. lol.

hais. when school had not started, kong kept telling me she don't wanna go to school. then i kept telling her, " why! school is fun!" now i finally understand why she don't wanna go to school ):

i'm actually still adapting to the new environment and friends eh ): it kinda suck. then somehow, the groups i'm in for projects are with people whom i'm seldom talk to. or, will have nothing to talk about. HAIS. ohwell ohwell. i guess its fate, so i must learn to speak up. NONSENSE ALSO CAN LA. ok.

so school is actually quite interesting. we already have projects. FML. -,- but i wanna watch the TALENTINE!!! like so interesting. LOL. and and and! i wanna join squash leh! like sound so fun ah. but then, ITS SPORTS!!! hello? i'm in poly cause don't need napfa one leh. then i go join a sports cca for what siol. -,- but it really sounds fun. hehehe. can release stress also. XD

ohwell ohwell. life is gonna be great. so i must not wake up late. lol. NIGHTS YOLKS!!! XD

FOREVER ALONE ):

2011-04-19T19:56:00.002+08:00

hello everybody ):

so...ok, lets talk about something nicer first.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABY PIGLE!!!

pig + eagle = pigle. LOL.

so, yea. sorry ah, no present yet. next time when i see you then i give you la! HAHAHA. wait ah. XD so yea, do have a nice day!!! and er, year! XD

ok, now sad part. hais. its not that i'm emo or what lor. i do have friends in my school already what! just that, everytime the grouping right, i'll be with people whom i'm not very close to. and they're always the people who are like super high and close to one another already. (actually the term just started la. hehehe.) so i'm like, ehm. ok, you all talk, i just listen ah. haha. so it's like quite depressing. hmm.. anyway! if i look at this from a brighter side, it can be that it's a chance for me to get to know more people lor. the starting is always more difficult. but nevermind! i shall stay strong, stand tall and step out of my comfort zone. (: BUT ITS STILL HARDDDDDDDD!!! ): i hope the people can be nicer to me. i don't mean that they're not nice to me la. just, don't treat me as invisible!!! i'm here!!! I'M HERE!!! ):

sad life. OHWELL.

i guess its only when you start school in another environment then will you start to miss the old school ): hais. nevermind nevermind. everything will come naturally!!! it will be fine (:

Who says?

2011-04-14T20:03:00.002+08:00

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

[Selena Gomez - Verse 2]
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

[Bridge]
Who says
Who says you’re not star potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, oh
Who says

[Chorus]

ok. so today, we had flag day. SUPER TIRING!!! but very fun. hahahaha. i don't know why, i find it super exciting. LOL. like, looking at people's expression when they see us is the funniest. LOL. like all pretend to not see us. so epic. lol.

so...it was like super warm and tiring, cause had to keep walking and walking ): but it was fun to be able to interact with meiwen and crystal. TEEHEE. XD

so we were like talking about stuffs like, our ideal boyfriend/guy/something. LOL. so funny. it felt like we knew each other for very long liao. LOL. nice nice.

then went to eat at funan. hehheh. soso la, didn't really talk much to the guys. i don't know why, i can't interact with guys one, like, will stutter. WHY! tell me why. ): i hate thisssssssssssssssssssssss!!!

then when we finished eating, it started raining like there's no tomorrow. -,- so, we were drenched. not totally la, like, just the legs though. teehee,

then...went back to count money. lol. ehhh this post is boring.

then its like, emalia, melissa and judith they all were like super high and playing with aaron they all. then the others are like, down. lol. sorry, i'm part of the down de. :z

i really really hate this know. its like, when people talk to me, i really really wanna answer them and keep the conversation rolling. but i just can't think of anything to say! and it sucks when i try to start a conversation and the other party just seem to be so not interested -,- so its like, forget it. HAIS. LIFE! ):

Same but different;

2011-04-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

HOOOOOOO~

poly life finally started. hahaha. ok, so! it was actually not bad. lol. SO ITS A BRAND NEW START!!! XD

First day:

so, i got to know MEIWEN!!! AND LIMIN!!! teehee. ok, actually i kinda forgot what happened liao. lol. then got to know CRYSTAL AND WEIQI! XD

Second day:

got to know the others. teehee. and had amazing race. omg, tiring much ):

Third day:

had SPICE training, sibei boring i tell you. omg. then ahh...yea, added almost everyone on facebook. hahaha. so overall, DTRM06 IS PRETTY AWESOME!!! XD

and yea, i can kinda see the shadows of friends from 4c1 in them. teehee.

this fabian guy is kinda like, ALIF!!! XD on first day he already started singing in front of us. AWESOME!!! super confident. talented too. lol.

and melissa is like...half LAI half LISA. lol. like, super outgoing kind. and she's like, super nice (:

still got who ah. OH. this martin guy. he's like GOODLY!!! he'll sacrifice for the class. lol. and he's not like, seeking alot of attention but he's putting alot of effort in helping the class. lol.

yea, so that's what i observed for the three days. HAVING FLAG DAY TOMORROW!!! OH MY OH! hope can get many people to donate (: DO YOUR PART IN HELPING PEOPLE! XD

Baseless Confidence;

2011-04-10T14:49:00.001+08:00

omo! school starts tomorrow!!!

it shall be a brand new start! so lets all work hard together! i really hope i can meet nice people there. teehee! we will all have fun!!! we so excited, we so excited. its friday friday. HAHAHAHAHA. retarded. OK. so yea, let's all be friends!!! (:

The Key to the Future is to let go of the Past;

2011-04-08T10:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONGHYUN <33333333333

TEEHEE!

oh oh, had a super fun dream last night. wahahaha. dreamt that everyone went back to ntps for carnival. so it was like, SUPER CROWDED AND FUN!!! its really great to see everyone together again. hahahaha.

then mr asman gathered all of us to play ball. hahaha. then JIADING handed me this donation-box-lookalike thing and said its an ipad -,- LOL. so i helped him take care of it. hehehe.

then we were like eating at the canteen together. hahahaha. then i was like telling everyone, FIONA PUT PAINT INSIDE THE COOKIES!!! ok, for i don't know why. then there was a concert going on. so its like super high!!! its not those school kinda lame concert eh. its the superstar concert kind eh!!! then i starting dancing 2pm's Heartbeat. hahahaha. then some people danced RINGDINGDONG!!! XD

then so edwin, xinpei/laikuan and i decided to go home first. then don't know why, STANY made the bus driver turn back to school so we had to take his truck home. 0.0 whud. hahahaha.

ok, about it le la. it doesn't sound very fun here but it was really a super happy and fun dream. teehee. OH OH, SCHOOL'S STARTING NEXT MONDAY!!!! OMG!!!! SUPER EXCITED AND SCARED. ): ohwell!!! i shall face it with a happy heart. TEEHEE. kinda eager actually. hahahaha. (:

298th;

2011-04-04T00:31:00.001+08:00

woah, 298th post only eh. EH SINCE SEC2 EH HELLO!!! tsk. OHWELL.

hi kong. HAHAHAHA. you very stressed hor. DON'T BE LA. its just school i tell you. hahaha. you can do it! you've been schooling for so many years liao lor. 5more years then its over!!! ENDURE!!! plus school is fun what. get to eat lunch in a canteen. hahaha.

oh oh, hehe, i'm glad you laughed after reading my blog. hahaha. since i can't make you laugh during school, you shall read my blog and laugh!!!

oh my oh, i'm suddenly looking forward to the future. aren't you? there are still so many things ahead of us know. hehehe, MARRIAGE. WOOOOO!!! can you imagine it? attending each other's wedding (not weeding). LIKE SO COOL!!! HAHAHAHA. then complaining about life (as always). hahahaha. but its these little things that makes life colourful (suddenly thinking of reuben -,- WHUD) ok, so yea.

OHYAY I'M PERFECT!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! ahya, its always good to improve ourselves isn't it. hahaha. you're perfect to me too. to alot of people actually. hehehe. don't too stress ah! later your head look like reuben's. :z deforestation. HAHAHAHA.

omg, this blog really can't delete sia. YOU LA, WHY DID YOU DELETE THE WITH-OUT-KZQ ONE!!! that blog also had alot of things about our school life sia!!! next time old liao can read de. ):

omg, i assure you, 1o years later when you read this blog, you'll feel like, 1oyears younger. HAHAHAHA. what. ok, actually i wanted to say, 1o years later, when you read this blog, you'll be laughing at how childish we are now. ahahaha. BUT THAT'S LIFE!!! and don't ever regret what you've done. cause its already a fact. so simple. hehehe.

anw, no matter what you do or choose to do, i believe it will lead you to a bright future. and happy ending!!! WOO!!!

stay happy!! XD

HELLO.

2011-03-30T10:03:00.002+08:00

omg, can you see it? can you see it?! that black speck there is the eagle!!! LIKE SO COOL!!! hehehe.

i woke up extra early today. 9AM!!! WOO!!! then i don't know why, i went to the kitchen's window and looked out. hehehe, kinda relaxing. then when i looked out, i saw 2 eagles circling at the mrt track there. like, super close to me!!! i wanted to call it over, but what if it decided to stay at my house? SCARY MUCH. so i decided not to. hehehe. then when i went to get my phone to take photo. they flew further away. so the photo turned out like ^^^ -,- then one more eagle came to join them. so there were 3!!! OMG. SO COOL!!! super exciting. hehehe.

Good Morning Bob;

2011-03-29T19:31:00.002+08:00

omg, stupid global warming, its like freaking hot nowadays -,-

oh oh oh! i had a super cool dream during my nap just now. hehehehe.

i dreamt that my stupid classmate asked me to run an errand though i had this really important thing to do. so i ran super super fast!!! like flying eh! hehehe, totally amazing and fun. hahahaha. then i "flew" up the stairs and down to the quadrangle. hehehe, then i was actually in some uniform group. hehehe, don't know is ncc or npcc la. lol. green flag? SCOUTS. then i had the most important role!!! the most shiok part is that everyone in school knew me, then as i was running around, people were like greeting me. hehehe, super shiok. then my job is to wave the flag. don't sound very important la, but still. then i was like, waving with my friends. like super happy like that. BUT THEN. i like don't have the skills to wave one. the flag kept hitting me. LOL. like so stupid and embarrassing. lol. BUT!! i had the baseless confidence and shamelessness -,- then i just kept doing that. i was really having alot of fun man. then my sis woke me up ): OHWELL. hehehehe.

DAMN HOT AH.

school starting realllllll soon!!! i hope there would be AT LEAST one guy like seunghyun in SP. hahahaha. like, PRAYING HARD. seunghyun is so super nice. XD

and. I SHALL STAY POSITIVE NO MATTER WHAT! its like, what can we do right, when things go wrong. if we break down at that point of time, we would no longer be able to do anything about the situation what. SO LETS ALL STAY STRONG AND MOVE ON WITH LIFE!!! XD

i shall type in chinese. hehehe. i was watching this show and i found what they said really meaningful. XD

人吗，就应该顺着命运走。就像河里的鱼儿，如果它们不向着河水流，就会受伤。只有向着河水流，才能找到上岸的力量。 ok, actually it sounds abit funny la. hahaha. like, why would the fishes wanna go on land ah? LOL.

another one - having problems isn't to destroy you, it only makes you stronger.

ok, doesn't sound exactly the same but still.

next one!

挫折就好像是一个大洞，如果你不跳过那个洞，就没有办法解决问题。也就是说，如果不面对挫折，就永远没办法解决问题。所以我们一定要跳过我们人生中的各个大洞。

so yay! lets all work hard together and move on with life. yea. yes. STAY POSITIVE PEOPLE!!! XD if unhappy can just watch the GOODMORNINGBOB video below! seunghyun is totally amazing and charming! XD

FT Island - Good morning bob Ep.3

2011-03-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

OMG, HE'S TOTALLY CUTE MAN!!! <3 LOVE HIM TO THE MAX!!!

he's like cuter than jonghyun. hehehe. AND KEY. HA YAZHEN. XD

Satisfied;

2011-03-25T14:13:00.002+08:00

ohyea man. hehehe. i just changed my blogskin again. wakakaka.

sorry jonghyun for abandoning you. hahahaha. but i feel that seunghyun and jaejin is cuter now. hehehe.

was watching maknae rebellion. seunghyun is totally cute!!! i totally like his smile. (: AND. he shall be my role model! i wanna learn from him, like how confident he is. i mean seriously, i wonder where his confidence came from. lol. he is from a band group, so his dancing skill is not sooo good. but he doesn't care, he just danced so confidently. hahahaha! AMAZING!!! and he's always smiling. hehehe. and oh! he's so optimistic! XD love him lots. XD

dongho's cute too! are korean guys all like this? singapore guys doesn't seem to be so innocent though. LOL. ohwell. (:

oh oh, school's starting. HAIS MY HAIR AH. GROW FASTER!!! ):

wrong hairstyle is the worst thing for me. ok, after napfa. napfa is the number one sucker. ): OH. talking bout sports...seunghyun isn't very good at sports, is he? :z HAHAHA. but well. he doesn't give up! :D love him lots. i feel like hugging him. HEHEHEHE. i mean its like, he's trying so hard!! but still ):

OHWELL. LIFE GOES ON. COMEON EVERYBODY, SHAKE IT SHAKE IT. ok whatever zihigh. hahahaha.

BASELESS CONFIDENCE!!!

Wonderland;

2011-03-18T22:27:00.002+08:00

hmm, i wonder who still reads my blog. hahaha.

sometimes i wonder, if anyone actually cares. and i wonder if my wonders are actually sensible. o.o like, do they even make sense. are they logical?

and why is it so unfair that when other people posts something on facebook they get so many likes/comments while my posts don't get any likes. ): i suck. and it sucks so much that i know quite a lot of people but they don't know me. i wonder if people actually cares about my existence. maybe people who care doesn't tell me they do. or maybe they care but they don't care enough to tell me they care. o.o ok, perhaps i'm talking crap.

been kinda...upset nowadays for no reason. and that sucks. ): i get grumpy over little things. i mean, i know i'm not suppose to do that, but i can't help it!!! and somehow my memory gets kinda erased sometimes. like, really erased. i kinda forget what happens right after it happened. like, a blank space in my memory film kinda thing. weird. o.o

there are so many things going through my mind that i wanna tell people. but at second thoughts, maybe they wouldn't bother to listen. sometimes, after i repeat to myself my thought, i don't get what i'm talking about as well. o.o like, i find it pointless to voice it out. and it sucks when you feel like telling someone something and they don't seem to be interested to listen. then you just give up trying to say it. sometimes i just forget and move on. i mean, why bother keep pondering over. sometimes i can't help it either, i just CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED. its like, i kinda mixed up reality, my thoughts and my dreams.

+YEA, IF ONLY MY DREAMS ARE REAL.

well, though life had been kinda shitty, my dreams were not bad. they were pretty exciting. hehehe. and i write down my dreams everyday. well, i try to write down the full story, but some parts just got erased ):

i dreamt of kimbum, jeremi, shinwoo, and leeminho last night!!! XD i dreamt that kimbum, jeremi and shinwoo like me. WAHAHAHAHAHAH. dreams == then i ended up with shinwoo. HAHAHAHAHAHA. it would be nice if its real. hehehe. but i'm kinda crazy over jaejin and seunghyun from FTISLAND now. hehehehe. they're really cute! but i wonder what they're like in real life.

woo, this is a long post. hahahaha.

talked with yuwei about having a family the other day. o.o maybe its abit early to talk about that. but its part of my concern. o.o like, marriage. its sweet but then, there are so many people having divorce now, so...i'm not too optimistic about marriage and happily ever after. and kids. hmm. pregnancy seems scary. o.o and there are just so many WHAT IF'S. ):

life can be great. i shall change myself alittle. like, i shall just try to be alittle more outgoing. i shall try saying hi to everyone who take notice of me. its not easy know. i tried doing that in secondary school. it kinda backfired and i'm like super shy now. ): it sucks. HAIS. LIFE.

GREAT DAY;

2011-03-08T12:26:00.002+08:00

SO SATISFIED!!!!

went out with huiying yesterday, suppose to be cycling, but it rained so we wen kbox at marina. hehehe. and i ate frolick!!! XD

so i slept at 11.14pm last night and i woke up at 11.14am in the morning. AWESOMEE!!! and i had a super exciting dream! then the moment i woke up i got to eat a sumptuous lunch. XD GREAT LIFE. hehehe.

so, my dream. i dreamt that it was raining super heavily. like, really. the sky was like, just pouring TUBS of water down on earth. not stopping for even a second. then the wind was so strong. so i went to my kitchen to close the windows then i saw the entire neighbourhood flooded. flooded, and so many people were drowning. cars were underwater. and the mrt train broke off and a cabin flew off and damaged the buildings and cars. o.o horrible sight. (maybe its the end of the world) then the next thing i knew, the water already reached the level of my window. AND HELLO, I'M STAYING AT 20TH FLOOR. O: then i saw this hand reaching out from the water. so i threw a piece of cloth down for her to catch. then she caught it, i pulled and nearly fell down too, luckily my sis caught me. so we pulled together and it was a Caucasian woman with children. like, omg. then one of the kids was sinking again, then his sister was like, "there's a shark behind you" i was like, OMG. then dived in and carried him out. wow, awesome me. i wonder if i'll really do that in real life. o.o

ok. that's not all but i don't wanna say everything. hehehe. BYE KIDS.

Glass Heart;

2011-03-02T11:43:00.001+08:00

HEY-HEY-YO!!! i'm back with another episode of my dream!!!

ok la, i dreamt of him again. UGH.

so, it started off with us needing to get our grad cert. then somehow my house was in some village kinda place. lol. then my dad suddenly told me that J is coming over to my place for stay over. LOL. then somehow, i was super excited. UGH. then in the end he didn't come la. so, i was kinda disappointed and upset, like thinking BAKA LA. then the next day my dad and i had to go to the city to get my cert. hahaha. then there's this field of glass, then i had to cross it barefooted. OMG MUCH. then somehow i could really feel the pain eh. LOL.

finally, we reached the city, then somehow i was on a tricycle -,- SERIOUSLY!!! then i saw J's big head there -,- HAHAHA. i was like, pissed that he broke the promise. HAHAHA. then we ended up chasing each other at this garden kinda place. LOL. they grew cabbages and cactus. LOL. ok, maybe i was chasing him to whack him. heh. too bad i woke up uh. LOL. (:

2011-03-01T11:26:00.001+08:00

hehehe, guys who blush are so cute!!! XD

It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do.

2011-03-01T10:12:00.002+08:00

HEY BABY, I THINK I WANNA MARRY YOU.

ok, so i had another cool dream last night!!! YAY! (ok, this just proves that i slept alot. hehehe.)

so i dreamt that i was in this campus which look like a mixture of the old ctss campus and new ctss campus. o.o

then both my primary and secondary school friends were there!!! HEHEHE.

so we went back to school supposing to be graduation day. then when we reached, the teachers were like, ok these sec5 students stay here. i was like, OMG I FAILED O'S? IM IN NA? T^T

then we went into this room (which look like my primary school classroom) where the sec1s were having orientation, then we like HUH!? then we realize we were there for some graduation briefing. DISTINCTIVE PEOPLE I SAW IN MY DREAM: ANTHONY, GERALD, HUIYING &BLAHBLAHBLAH.

then so, we got our grad cert. then our school turn out to look like a hotel lobby. TOTALLY AMAZING!!! XD then i was with YAZHEN!!! (EH YAZHEN I FINALLY DREAMT OF YOU!!!)

so, we were like waiting for J -,- don't know why. then J left his bag with yazhen and went off to get something. haha. then i walked away leaving yazhen with the bags. THEN LAIKUAN APPEARED!!! HAHAHAHA! so we talked. then yazhen came over with the bags and J returned. then we were sitting at the stairs, staring at each other. o.o SEE, WE'VE NEVER SPOKEN BEFORE SO I CAN'T DREAM OF US TALKING. -,- & oh, i woke up -,-

there was one scene where my mum was trying to drive my dad's car. FREAKING SCARY. cause she doesn't have a license!!! ):

AND OH!!! i woke up at 9:16am yesterday and i woke up at 9:16am again today!!! SO COOL RIGHT!!! XD

i so wanna dream of myself flying again ):

i think i wanna marry you.

Maybe It Could Have Been Easier;

2011-02-27T21:32:00.002+08:00

HEY-YO-YO!!!

so i had a weird dream again. hmm.

so at first we were going for a picnic. but i was feeling really pissed though i don't know why. then it started raining, so the picnic was cancelled. then i saw the guy i used to like. hehehe. J.

then it changed scene to this cafe. so he was there too, like, sitting down opposite me. then my heart skipped a beat. HYPERVENTILATE!!! hehehe. then i took this cup of coffee/tea then i wrote inside the cup, "i used to like you, did you like me too?"

then i passed him the cup. and he smiled at me. HAHAHA. but we didn't talk. maybe because we never talked to each other before so it couldn't be replayed in my mind. heh.

THEN THEN THEN!!! he returned me the empty cup, inside it wrote, " YES."

OHMY OHMY OHMY. hehehehe. XD

so yea, its kinda cool. it really could have been easier to forget about him if i don't dream about him so often.

even yazhen say he sucks la, WHY CAN'T I JUST GET RID OF THE FAKE OHSONICE IMAGE OF HIM!!! ): LIFE.

Singapore Poly;

2011-02-25T11:26:00.002+08:00

HEY-YO-YO!!!

hais, poly enrollment, biggest trouble recently!!! its like, so many things to do! and still need to go for medical check up -,- DAMN. and the time limit is soooo short!!! HAIS.

eh, i think im very weird, cause im watching sakura the cardraptor now. HAHAHA! can learn jap eh!!! XD

oh oh oh! going to have dinner with denyse, kong, yuwei and yazhen later! IM EXCITED!!! XD

i shall get a little notebook to write down all the reunions we have. XD

AND I THINK SAKURA AND TOMOYO VERY PRETTY!!! XD LOVE TOMOYO'S HAIR!! XD

Love Is In The Air;

2011-02-24T15:11:00.001+08:00

AND SO, AS YOU CAN SEE, I KINDA CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN(?)

OMG!!! JONGHYUN!!! hotness overload. XD

walao, i change until my eyes gonna pakjiao. -,- cause must take note of the colour contrast and size. (actually i only copy and paste la XD)

so i was deciding whether i should include onew, taemin and key too. but it looked funny. so i decided to stay with just jjong. cause apparently, he smiled the most in pictures and he looked the best. hehe.

i wanted all the photos to be of him smiling, so whoever thats reading my blog would see his smile and smile too (:

AND KEY DONT REALLY SMILE UH? it was so hard to find a photo of him smiling ):

Hey Hi.

2011-02-22T14:24:00.002+08:00

hahaha. it feels so funny to read the chat history of people i used to like. SO FUNNY DE. and can really tell when we started to distant away from each other. lol. ehm..

ok lor. so. i guess we were all stupid and we chose to like people at the wrong time. haha. its like, for this period you like this person and he doesn't like you back. then this other guy like you at the same period but you dont like him back then after that when you like him, he no longer cares about you. AHDONG, SO COMPLICATING. ):

OHWELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. life.

TO: PIG

2011-02-22T13:46:00.002+08:00

cont'd

AND OH, I ENJOY BEING WITH YOU TOO!!! and i hope we can continue quarreling once in awhile and patch immediately afterthat. HAHAHAHA. and yea la, we will confirm keep in contact de, unless i migrate to japan!!! XD

AND STOP SNATCHING JONGHYUN FROM ME LA!! YOU MINHO BIAS!!!

Kawaii Neh!

2011-02-22T13:33:00.003+08:00

hahaha. huiying wants a post dedicated to her too. LOL!!!

ok. so. HUIYING IS A PIG WHO LIKES TO EAT. and seriously she eats alot. LOL. so huiying and yazhen are pretty alike! OHMY! hahahaha. but yazhen eats practically everything -,- but huiying is VERY picky and only eats fastfood. tsk, unhealthy pig. and yazhen LOVES vege, huiying HATES vege. ok, so there IS a difference. LOL.

ohwell, huiying and i had been friends for 1oyears already!!! AMAZING TTM!!! HAHAHAHA. but honestly, though we've been friends for so long, i dont quite understand her very well. i mean, if you ask me what she likes to eat, i can only say KFC -,- RIGHT PIG?! HAHAHAHA. ohwell. im sorry i dont understand you very well. heh. BUT I WILL STILL STAY BY YOUR SIDE!! AND WILL ALWAYS BE THERE WHEN YOU NEED ME! HAHAHA! AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE PROMISE!!! LOVE YOU LOTS!!! XD

heh. happy with the post? HAHAHA! so im going to talk about my KAWAII dream now!!! HAHAHA.

so i dreamt that i was going to school. BUT OMG, THE SCHOOL IS FREAKING COOL!!! its not like singapore's lame brick building, but the whole school is made of wood!! OMG LIKE COTTAGE!! SUPER KAWAII!!! XD then i dont know why, i ate wanqi's bao or something, so i had to pay her back. LOL. didnt have small change so i gave her a 1odollar note. then she folded it into a fan shape and tore some parts out of it. like, UGH!!!! THE MONEY CAN'T BE USED LIAOOOOOOO!!! my $$$$$$ ):):):): TOTALLY BROKE HERE!!!! ):

then so, i dont know why, i started bringing teddy bears to school. LOL!!! and i wore the pyjamas jeremi wore in You're Beautiful. LOL!!! SO CUTE HOR!! omg, i dont know why. HEEEEEE. so everyone was like treating me like xiaomeimei. HEH. i like that kinda feeling, its like, you feel more secured that people are willing to protect you. HAHAHA. SOT LIAO. ohwell. it was nice. THEN WHEN I WAS FINALLY ENJOYING MY SCHOOL TIME IN THAT SUPER NICE COLLEGE, MY BRO'S TEACHER CALLED -,- KNS, WAKE ME UP FROM SUCH A SWEET DREAM!!!! ):):):): LIFE SUCKS ):

oh, FYI, if you wanna know why my bro's teacher called, its because he fainted in school. i mean those kinda brief blackout then lost his balance kinda faint. haha, nothing serious. (:

To: YazhenCHUA

2011-02-21T13:23:00.002+08:00

ok la, since yazhen seems to be the only one reading my blog now. hahaha. and because you keep complaining i never dream of you. LOL! so i shall dedicate a post to you. HONOURED MUCH?!

ok. so. EH I CANNOT CHOOSE WHAT TO DREAM ONE RIGHT. lol!

ok la. i guess you're the only one that understand how i feel at times though we do disagree sometimes (actually alot of times la, ohwell). but then, i tell you most of how i felt ok. because i trust you. (: SO! even if one day i stop talking to you (maybe because im too busy watching drama or something), i want you to know that you'll still be my best friend forever. (:

since im able to interact with friends i haven't seen for 4years so well, im sure we can do it too. we've been through so much together anyway. i believe we will remain as friends till we grow old. even if one day we are diagnosed with amnesia (you know the weird illness that makes you forget alot of things?) or something, i believe we will still remain in each others heart (:

Reminiscences;

2011-02-20T11:23:00.003+08:00

lol! went chalet the other day with primary school friend. it was awesome! not as bad as expected. lol. saw friends whom i've not met for 4years. wow. LOL. somehow we were still able to interact quite well. LOL. at first abit awkward la. LOL. ok. i don't wanna elaborate but, well. I CONQUERED EAST COAST PARK!!! LOL! cycling rocks.

then on the bus ride home with yongwei, laikuan and edwin, we were like talking about the shanghai trip in p5. LOL. the most awesome period of primary school. LOL.

then so, because we were talking about the trip, last night i dreamt that we were going shanghai again. ROFL. then i dreamt that i wasn't prepared at all and i only started packing when the flight is in 15mins time or something, totally crazy. lol. (and typing on the bed is tiring)

so it was kinda scary. lol. i want another chalet leh!!! it was really awesome to be with friends. lol. and really, my cycling skills very pro already ok. LOL! even anthony think so OK! XD

ntps rocks. (:

you are my sun, and im your sunflower;

2011-02-16T11:00:00.000+08:00

being together is about having fun. (:

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

2011-02-14T10:09:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!

I HAD A SUPER COOL DREAM LAST NIGHT!!!

i dreamt of renguangxi from xia yi zhan xing fu and he's my husband!!! hahahaha!!!
so funny.

then somehow, there's this disaster going on. then i have super powers!!! my power is like BOB from monster vs alien. LOL!!! epic. then i had to save the world.

then one part of the dream very sad. its like, my "husband" saying to me, " you used to cry for me, now you dont even remember who i am.." kinda thing. LOL!

so weird. but it was really nice eh! like watching movie!!! SO COOL!!!

I suck;

2011-02-07T20:47:00.000+08:00

Despite knowing that we would end the conversation damn horribly, I still messaged him. Stupid much!!!

Shall remind myself to stop doing that. YES.

23; YOU SUCK

2011-02-07T10:45:00.001+08:00

i feel like talking to you. but i know we're never gonna be able to talk to each other like before. ehyea, we've never talked to each other in rl, but at least we communicated.

everytime i see your photo, i felt that you're very sad or something but just doesnt wanna show it. i dont know what you're thinking. and everytime i asked, you wont tell me.

#its not that i dont care, its just that even if i asked, you wouldn't tell me.

what should i do;

2011-02-07T10:21:00.001+08:00

i dreamt that i still like you, and you like me too.

we went to the same poly again and we were in the same class for the first time.

because i like you, and wanted to spend more time with you, i got reprimanded by my teacher. hahaha.

OMG, WEIRD DREAMS.

Pomo;

2011-01-27T20:49:00.001+08:00

Ohmy. Accompanied huiying to sp for the appeal thing today. Sp quite nice leh. Hahaha. But Im still scared I might not be able to make new friends. And huiying is not going sp Liao. So I'm actually alone. OMO! I'm really scared lah.

I'm also scared if I don't really like the course ah, like WTF 120hours of POA and 120hours of economics. Omo... -.- really can die. Hahaha. Hais.

OMO

2011-01-26T13:25:00.002+08:00

oh oh oh. i dreamt of kong last night. HAHAHAHA! i dreamt that she was wearing this weird kiddy dress. HAHAHAHAHA! SUPER SUIT HER. XD

"i don't want you to be happy without me"

though it sounds selfish. but its ohsotrue. ):

Pesticides;

2011-01-26T11:19:00.002+08:00

OMO. hahahaha. i think OMO sounds so cute. XD

got posted to sp!!! tourism! yay!

ok, so i've been thinking. is it worth getting upset and frustrated over someone you don't like? i mean, you're the one that's suffering from the hatred, not them eh. they won't even know that you're angry with them. they will continue living their lives happily while you live in hatred. stupid much? and right, after a period of time, you'll start to forget what caused you to hate them already. then you feel ohsostupid to have lived in hatred. lol.

and i wonder. what if we're ohsobusy looking for something, thinking it is what we really want but actually it isn't? what if. AHHHH. feel so annoyed.

yea. and for ggg, i used to dislike her so much. but now i feel that, actually she is quite nice. (though not like i like her 100% now la) but i can feel that she is more genuine than some people. she treasure the friendships she have, though she do lie, and i still can't trust her fully. but she takes care of the people around her, though she does say things thats kinda disturbing some time. hahaha. ohwell.

maybe we shall learn to forgive. but we shall never forget. for some people may seem to have changed for the better, but we can never be sure. for we, ourselves, may not be sure what we are thinking at certain points of time. ):

OK.

what if, the thing we've always been busy looking for is actually not what we really want?

You Suck;

2011-01-24T21:20:00.001+08:00

why is the world so unfair? act to earn people's sympathy then you would be treated better? what kinda world is this?

Singlish of Freedom;

2011-01-22T21:43:00.001+08:00

AHYA. WHATEVER HE'S POSTING ON HIS WALL OR BLAH DOESN'T CONCERN YOU LA. SO BLAH OFF YO. XD

LOVEtriangle;

2011-01-20T22:44:00.003+08:00

omg, feel so sad for hua chixin. ):

HATES LOVE TRIANGLE. like, always like that de, then one person would confirm get hurt. ):

& i feel especially sad when people are acting happy when they're actually not. ):

example: hua chi xin and jeremi.

just cry man!!! why act happy? makes people cry for you. and why people who are nice won't get what they deserve to get uh? SO UNFAIR!!!

#don't leave don't leave don't leave ):

& i feel extremely sad for jeremi ( I TMD HATE THAT SCENE ) when he was crying on his TREASURE-BUS and alighted with a smile. WHY!!! WHY MUST YOU DO THIS!!! ):

You're Beautiful;

2011-01-20T22:28:00.002+08:00

omg, i love taekyung, shinwoo and jeremi!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

they're really like angels. super nice man. hahahahahaha. where's my taekyung, SHINWOO & JEREMI!!! ): ):

hahahahahaha!

I don't know why, but i get really irritated and agitated when i watch shows and the guy character and girl character likes each other but don't dare to admit nor confess de. like, SOOOOO...IRRITATING. ugh!!! like, the stupid go mi nam/nyo hor, totally piss me off!!! in the world really got such dumb person?! hahahahahahaha! but she dumb still got so many guys so nice to her. ): jealous much. HAHAHAHAHA! but she was quite sweet and kinda touching when she tried her best to be useful and not to hurt taekyung. HAHAHAHA. so nice. (:

and it was damn funny when the 3 of them asked her who she like more. HAHAHAHA. AND SHE ALWAYS CHOOSE SHINWOO!!! though she don't know they're talking about themselves la, SO DUMB. HAHAHAHAHA. shinwoo's so sweet. HAHAHAHA! but taekyung was also soooooo soooo sooooooooo nice when he took care of her lor! and made the rabbit pig thingy. HAHAHAHA! SO SWEET! LOL! and i find it super funny when he gets jealous of minam choosing shinwoo instead of him. HAHAHAHAHAHA! and he's weird mouth action. LOL!!! LOVE THEM MAN! XD

Dreams&Reality;

2011-01-20T11:11:00.002+08:00

OHYA. i had a weird dream last night. I FINALLY DREAMT OF KEY AND ITS A NIGHTMARE ): ): ):

i dreamt that we were in some chalet or something, then somehow it turned to a camp-like kinda place. lol. then my cousins and aunts all there la, THEN KEY ALSO THERE!!! LIKE, OMG!!! SHINEE'S KEY!!! XD

then so, we were like playing games or something, then my aunts kept scolding me and shooting me evil glares ): (THIS IS A DREAM) very scary and sad that people hates you.

then idk why, got this girl from don't know where. lol. then i kept sabo-ing her? like, do very mean things to her. HAHAHAHA. jealousy i think. SHE WAS SO CLOSE TO KEY OK. ): then at the end of the dream (cause i can't remember what happened in the middle) i had this double flute thingy, then i played, WOAH, DAMN NICE EH. HAHAHAHAHAHA! how i wish its real. then key very angry with me. then he used his giant dog to attack me or something like that. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! SUPER WEIRD!!!

some people say when you dream of the person, means the person is missing you. YEA, LIKE KEY EVEN KNOW ME MAN. ): ): ):

HAHAHAHA! ohwell. if i really know key right, i hope it won't be like in this situation la. ):

When Time Rewinds Itself;

2011-01-20T11:05:00.002+08:00

i'll be dreaming of you tonight, till tomorrow i'll be holding you tight. (: nice song.

ahahaha.

GOING ZICHAR WITH MELINDA, LOO, JIEXIN, YAZHEN AND DENYSE LATER! ZICHAR MANIACS. LOL. ohwell.

went loo's house yesterday to watch them bake. HAHAHA. i didn't say i wanna bake!!! I JUST WANTED TO SPEND SOME TIME OUTSIDE HOUSE. HEH.

so i went to singapore post first to buy stamp and mailed CNY cards to relative in malaysia. FIRST TIME! WOO! then trained from buona vista to jookoon then back to JE. hahahaha. SERIOUSLY WASTING TIME AND $$$$!!! ): feel sad now that i've wasted $$$$ ):

anw, went the her house and watched them bake. I HELPED OK! I HELD THE MIXING BOWL IN POSITION! HAHAHAHA! and i scooped apples for melinda. XD felt sooooo good when loo's mum asked if i'm the 开心果. hehehehe. don't like that ask ma, i will paiseh. HAHAHAHAHAHA! then suddenly got cockroach crawl out from don't know where. then jiexin siam-ed then loo jumped till far far. HAHAHAHAHAHA! SUPER FUNNY. XD

after baking, played this weird reaction game. HAHAHA! JUNGLE SPEED. WOAH. I WON OK!!! WINNER!!! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!!! XD

When Dreams Come True;

2011-01-17T11:13:00.004+08:00

#JUNG JURI

lol, had a weird dream last night. woke up laughing. HAHAHAHA.

had a terrible cramp again yesterday. FML. all the raw fish from the steamboat on friday came swimming out of my mouth. amazing, cramp also will vomit. o.o then had wedding dinner at night. the food was so-so though. was TOTALLY amazed by how the waiter (?) served us. SUPER EXPERIENCED!!! it looked so easy! let me emphasize on the word LOOK, ok? i tried and it was bloody difficult. == i thought the waiter kinda looked like yoga lin. hahahaha. ok, everyone with that kinda hair look like yoga lin to me. XD

then at night, sis had terrible headache. it happened so suddenly, scare me sia. then granny had diarrhea and vomited. TRUST THE FOOD YO. after attending to them, i went back to sleep. here comes the weird dream. HAHAHAHA.

so i dreamt that i was working at some big factory which is actually a kindergarten HQ or something. so my second aunt was there and she asked me to do something for her. then i didnt know how to do and did it wrongly. and obviously she was mad at me. then changed scene to going to a shopping mall, then i was telling my mum that second aunt being angry with me is just a dream. (y'realised, i said i was dreaming in a dream! INCEPTION.)

then i ended up working at this carnival. so i was assigned to do some...erm...idk what. so i was just walking around telling people not to spray water around. HAHAHAHAHA! then the carnival place turned into a small swimming pool. ER?! then rachakan was there. WOO. and KONG. HAHAHAHAHAHA. ok, here comes the fun part. LOL. so i was in the water, complaining that my butt hurt due to whacking the swimming pool floor too many times. then rachakan was running around with this guy called TORO in this swimming show. then i took a hose and aimed at KONG. she was like, nah, you cant reach me from so far away. then BOOSH. the water smacked right into her face. HAHAHAHAHA. i dont know why but it was damn funny. HAHAHAHAHA! then so, i woke up. HAHAHAHA. LAUGHING.

ok la, the dream quite lame. but very fun leh! LOL! oh well. (:

The Promise;

2011-01-15T11:56:00.003+08:00

went out with huiying yesterday. hahaha. 2jan2011 is our 1oyears anniversary!!! FRIENDS FOR 1o YEARS! AWESOME MUCH!!! XD

so, we wanted to go ECP and cycle. learn how to u-turn!!! YO BABY! but then it started raining when we reached outram park station. hais, who was the one who suggested that uh. tsk tsk. so instead of cycling, we went taka for steamboat.

OH MY GOOSE. raw fish was swimming in my stomach ): not cooked enough. ): and so we started talking about how we managed to maintain our friendship for so long. HAHAHA. so, she had a friend who is now having some issue with her due to the boyf. yea. so we were like, IF we ever like the same guy (pray hard that we won't like the same guy first), as in if we ever do la, what would we do.

ok, i was seriously tiao diao. like, yea, what would we do uh?

so we were like, OK WE WOULD MEET UP AND SIT DOWN AND SEE WHETHER THE GUY IS WORTH IT ANOT. HAHAHA.

then we were like, but then it would be very awkward seeing your bestfriend with the guy you liked. PLUS IT WOULD BE SO HARD TO FORGET THE GUY IN THE FIRST PLACE.

so, we decided, IF we ever like the same guy (JONGHYUN!!!) we would both give up that guy. hahahaha. FRIENDSHIP IS MORE IMPORTANT!!!!!!

its a promise, and we shall never ever break it.

PINKY! x3

then we went to the shop selling all the kiddy toys. OMGOOSE, I LIKE EH!!!! HAHAHAHAH. i like the wood toys. LOL.

then there was this train set and two boys were playing, I WANNA PLAY ALSO. but we went in to look at other things. there was this wood crocodile thing, DAMN CUTE. HAHAHAHAHA. then when you pull the string as you walk, the croc's mouth will move. DAMN CUTE!!! HAHAHAHAHA. next time when i have children, i would buy wooden toys for them, instead of gadgets. bad for eyes. and i think playing wood toys more like childhood ah. hahahahahaha!!! then for girls i would buy cloth dolls. aww. HAHAHAHAHA. x3

then we went over to play with the two boys at the train set. (couldn't resist temptation)

then the chinese/jap/korean boy (cause he couldn't speak chinese == and he look jap) gave huiying a train, NEVER GIVE ME!!! ): he didn't even look at me. I'M JEALOUS ): but anyway, i stuck myself there and played. got another angmoh boy. AHAHAHAHA. train set is fun!! AND I TAUGHT THE "JAP" BOY TRAFFIC. RED LIGHT CANNOT CROSS, GREEN LIGHT CAN CROSS. hehheh. i feel so happy. I SHALL BE A KINDERGARTEN TEACHER!!! like so cute lor, all the kiddy. XD

then i waved byebye to the "jap" boy and walked to the shop beside it. apparently they're linked. LOL. then when we waved the boy was like, "huh, not playing already?" SO CUTEEEEEEEE!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA. SEE! HE LIKE ME!!! XD x3

then when we were at the next shop, the "jap" boy pulled the wooden croc and came to find us!!! OMG!!! SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! he miss me already. aww. XD

then we brought him back to his dad la. then the dad was like, "WHERE DID YOU GET THIS THING!" (so scary) then the boy was like, point and said, "there". SO CUTE!!! AND HE'S 3YEARS OLD. I ASKED HIM AND HE ANSWERED ME!!!! SO CUTE!!! XD

that smile (:

2011-01-11T11:02:00.002+08:00

omg, jonghyun's smile is really dazzling. HEEEEEEEEEEEE! XD

ok, got back olevel's result yesterday. got 16. -.-

got damnit sia. super lousy. but what can i do. HAHAHA.

didnt feel a thing leh, just abit disappointed lor. hahaha.

KONG GOT 8 EH! TOP SCHOLAR YO!!!! hehheh. XD

somehow it doesnt feel real leh. like, this morning i woke up, i still thought getting that shit result is just a dream. BUT. its real lor. ):

OHWELL. now have to have headache over where to go. HAIS. SP? NYP? NP? TP?!!!

& they lived happily ever after;

2011-01-07T08:35:00.007+08:00

WOAH, LAST DAY OF WORK YO!
kinda happy but disappointed when i heard that my pass would be taken away and 2470lauxinyi would be deleted. ): SAD MUCH! then it will look like i never existed in this company ):

slept at 12 yesterday, regret it man. tired ttm now. nearly fell asleep. OHWELL. its the last day anyway. hahaha.

#shinee

ohyea, finally had a dream last night. not a very favourable one though. rather not dreamt of it. ):
almost everyone dreamt about their results. BUT I DIDN'T!!! ):
wonder if its a good thing or a bad thing though.

saw G's status last night. "i'm sorry." hahahaha. actually i feel that i dont really care about it anymore.

OHOHOH!!! I WANTED TO SAY THIS LONG AGO.
下一站，幸福's drama kinda suck. the book is so much better. BUT XIAOXIAOBIN IS REALLY CUTE!!!! HAHAHAHA! wonder what he'll look like when he grow up. dont really think he'll be shuai though. HAHAHA.

#BIG EYED PRINCE
NOT REFERING TO MINHO YO.
omg, when to search for CHOI MINHO'S profile and photos last night, nearly died laughing. HAHAHAHA!

i've learnt not to take things too seriously. cause sometimes even though it matters alot to you, it doesnt even worth thinking through for the other person. since its so insignificant for him, then why bother?

i'm talking lots of crap man.

#i want you to notice when i'm not around

my gum hurt. stupid wisdom tooth.
I HAVE WISDOM!!!

#you're leaving without me this time ):

i'm seriously saying things that doesnt really matter to me. WEIRD.

try running around the office running errands man.
FUN TTM!!!
HAHAHAHAHA!
can meet people ma, some are quite nice. HEHE.
and its fun fun fun!
XD
should have asked me to do this long ago what.
then people wont ask, (one month after i worked here) "eh, she new here ah?"
SERIOUSLY!?

#edit edit
omg, i dont know why i already started missing work ):
i actually miss working more than i missed school eh. AWESOME.

ABC is as easy as onetwothree;

2011-01-05T21:37:00.001+08:00

"just when everything starts to matter, the person who cared doesn't care anymore..."

# XD limited;

2011-01-05T11:57:00.006+08:00

last week of work and i end up doing some reallyyyyyy diferent things. LOL!

have you ever tried binding papers? (is that the correct spelling anyway. OHWELL.)

things i learnt from work:

#1, some people burp alot

#2, some people dont smile alot

#3, lunch time is AWESOME, cause i get to come back late and not get scolded. (though i still like school's lunch time more.)

#4, numbers are freakingggggg irritating! ):

#5, firewall cant block everything

BWAHAHAHA.

"can you help me?"
this is not a question, its an order.
hais, obey lor. HAHA.

omg, damn tired now.
my neck hurts. ):
maybe i should go for massage. HAHAHA.

hmm. not a bad day today. HAHAHA.
BINDING IS AWESOME!!!!
cause can sing. no one there what. plus the printing can harmonise with my voice. oooo. -.-
HAHAHAHA. OHWELL!
HAPPY DAY. but still freaking scared for results. ):
and its weird for someone to keep staring at you. 0.0

Unreasonable;

2011-01-05T08:57:00.002+08:00

#greedy, and you'll be left with nothing;

walau. dont like dont like dont like dont like dont like dont like!
dont like liao then dont get so bothered with whatever he does la! it doesnt concern you what.

#self reflection;

do you really care that much anyway? maybe its just a moment of impulse? maybe you dont really like him that much anyway.
THEN WHY!!!! why get bothered when your friends know something about him that you dont. you're not stalking him anyway. (come to think about it, being a PI also not bad, PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR SIA!!!)
hahahahaha! my new ambition! yay much! prying into other people's business, not bad, my hobby sia. HAHAHAHA. and i like tracking people down. STALKER MUCH SERIOUSLY. ohwell. hahahaha. IP ADDRESS CAN BETRAY YOU DUDE.

dates. password, numbers;

2011-01-05T08:44:00.002+08:00

woo! ending work soon. not that i hate this job or something. its pretty nice to be able to meet new people and enjoy aircon the whole day. but its pretty boring. like, sitting in front of the comp the whole 8hours!!! shannen should have found out how to use msn earlier. LOL. oh well. but it was nice to be able to spend the morning, lunch and evening alone with mummy. :) rare chance man. PLUS, I GET $$$$!!! HAHAHAHA!

missed so many outing with friends. (actually not alot la)
i wanna go USS man! but yuwei say not all the rides are ready yet. go now abit waste money? but tai say its fun leh! omg, so looking forward to that day. XD i'll bring a rod or something to whack the mascot for stealing my job. HAHAHAHA! just kidding. I WANNA WORK AS MASCOT!!! HAHAHAHA! i think dancing LUCIFER & RINGDINGDONG in a KUNGFU PANDA outfit would be awesome.

and i realise i dont really bother to check my entries, i know there are alot of errors. who cares, no one reads it anyway. lol.

results next monday. awesome much. superrrrrr scareddddd. ):
why cant they release later, like at least allow me to have fun for one week after my job. UGH!

#who's the idiot

and is it really that we shouldnt trust people too much? but if we dont trust each other, how are we able to get along well? OH WELL.

#banana pancakes ):

Lions, Sheep, and Dinosaurs.

2010-12-31T21:58:00.002+08:00

EH, SHEEP NO PLURAL??! HAHAHAHA.

man, i cant decide what course i wanna take.

LOL!

now i feel like going to NYP instead. LOL. and i dont know why. i scared ngeeann too hip then i cannot blend in.

BLENDER!!!!!!!!!!

#cuts &bruises

i cut 3 coconuts today! SUPER PROUD MUCH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

damn hard eh! AS IN, LITERALLY.

LOL!

ohwell, feel high now. LOL! ohwell. XD

MY SIS PLUCKED OUT HER TEETH TODAY!!! for braces. hahaha.

remind me of the time i plucked my teeth. LOL.

#robuts&robots

what's robuts man, the wrong spelling of robots.

oh oh oh, i remember what i wanna say now. hehheh.

i wanna sit by the beach at night alone and just stare at the dark sky. HAHAHA.

i need to like, reflect. hahaha. so many things to think about.

#oh oh oh! i fried walnuts with sugar today! very nice eh! watch tv really can learn stuffs. LOL.

#and whats with cockroach race?! hahahahahaha! eww much.

snail race is the best. TEST YOUR PATIENCE BABY. XD

i shall blog some other day. how come people can actually do so many weird stuffs for fun de. MEASURE THE SIZE OF TOE?! UH?! HAHAHAHAHA! JOKE TMM.

Jealousy is the ugliest trait.

2010-12-30T21:31:00.004+08:00

Feel emo now. There are so many things running through my mind now.

Why give up the whole forest just because of a tree? Just because of one person who broke your trust towards them, do you have to not trust everyone now?

Jealousy is indeed the ugliest trait. It makes someone lose everything you have. Like happiness which is right before you, can actually be lose just due to one moment of jealousy.

Guess i'm really thinking too much. Like being too affected by little things. I don't wanna think so much man. It's making me really upset. ):
And I don't know why, I get affect when people change too. As in their character la, not their clothes. -.-
How i wish someone can invent someone that can auto record down someone's thoughts. Cause there's always so many things in mymind I wanna record down and rewd through it again, like, reflecting.

I guess I wanna stop liking him. Its like taking drugs isn't it? Like, the faster you get rid of that habit, the easier it is to do that? Actually im not even sure if I really like him a lot, or do i just take him as a big brother who's really caring? Hahaha, liking someone is such a horrible feeling.

;bias

Dongho is really cute!!!! Omg.

And now i finally understand the sian-ness of working. -.- seriously. It's damn boring! For once i wanna go back to school. -.- and why isn't everyone else working uh? Like so free de they, can go out everyday. I'm jealous dude! Hahahaha! Oh well. Life sucks. But thats life.

Standard.

2010-12-19T22:35:00.001+08:00

maybe i still like you.

but i'm not sure.

FRIENDS FOREVER (:

2010-11-19T21:34:00.002+08:00

graduation ceremony had ended. didn't feel abit of...sadness? didn't miss the school actually.

hahaha.

but after reading denyse's letter, i suddenly miss the time we spent together. choir used to suck so much and it was like hell. but heh, we made it fun didn't we? doing weird dance outside choir room and singing songs in a super weird way that it made the sky cry. hahahaha! and doing weird hand signs that made the song fun. hahaha. pon-ing choir and worrying after that. hahaha. choir had been part of our school life and part of our memory.

hating zoni had allowed us to have a common thing between us. hahaha. now we have different dreams and are going different directions, but i believe this special thing called "friendship" would link us together, forever. :)

as long as this friendship is genuine, nothing can break us apart. :)

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2010-11-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

O's level had just ended.

but, i don't feel happy.

THIS FEELING SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He gets it all

2010-11-03T19:43:00.002+08:00

why is it always so unfair?

he gets everything.

UGH.

anyway, I WANNA WORK AT THE UNIVERSAL STUDIO AS A MASCOTTTTTTTTTT!!!

HAHAHAHAHA!

like, OMG, SO FUN!

or at a boutique!

LOL!

imagine i work at a shop that sells guy's clothes then KEY OR ONEW COMES!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!

HAPPY MUCH!!!

ahhhh.

olevel's ending soon.

EH, ACTUALLY ITS A GOOD THING.

but still.

thinking of having to go poly and work.

its gonna be so exciting and kinda...scary.

like, when people work, everyone is your enemy.

you can't find true friends and do crazy things like we do now.

AHHHHHHHHHH.

then there will no longer be any fairytales and no more fantasy.

teenagers, thinking of love.

HAHAHAHA.

when we grow up, what would be the definition of love?

now ( FOR ME ), love is sweet and fun.

HAHAHA.

like, sharing every moment with your partner.

having fun together.

hahahaha.

when we grow older, when we get married.

what we would be going through would be quarrels, quarrels and quarrels.

so, thats all we get after all the time we spent with each other?

maybe its because we would be spending too much time together and gets sick of each other.

so maybe couples shouldn't be seeing each other everyday, so we'll be grateful of each other and treasure each other more?

hahaha.

hmm.

oh well!

p.s maybe should start saving money for divorce?

HAHAHA.

just kidding.

who doesn't want to live happily ever after with your love one?

HAHA.

but sometimes, its just not possible know.

like everytime we watch drama, then they'll make the characters quarrel like mad at first, then fall deeply in love.

HAHAHA.

then the guy or girl will fall ill with some serious illness and would die eventually.

isn't this kinda love more...interesting and each other would treasure each other more?

maybe its only until we know we're going to loss it then would we start to treasure it.

haha. ):

or maybe the guy or girl can have a car accident, and lose his memory.

then the girl would have to suffer in silence because she doesn't want the guy to...be sad?

LOL!

eh! this kinda story like so much nicer than singapore's drama can!

LOL.

[Trailer] I GIVE MY FIRST LOVE TO YOU (我的初恋情人) w/ English & Chinese Subt...

2010-10-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

Chemistry Matters.

2010-10-21T15:59:00.002+08:00

erm, not talking about the subject chemistry here.

but yea, got the inspiration from my textbook, which is just beside me.

oh well.

just went studying at macs with latte aka 省钱王, jingyi and yazhen.

WAHLAU!

i waited for lai for one hour. -.-

anyway.

wasn't really effective.

ended up playing ipod.

which i'm like, SUPER NOOB.

HAHAHAHAHA.

hey, noob is not a word?

LOL.

whackingmushrooms.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2010-10-19T21:51:00.006+08:00

always wanted to have the power to make people happy.
like, you hope that just with your presence, your friend would be happy.
even though, sometimes, SOME friends would be like, YOU SUCK HAHAHAHAHAHA.
but you just know that they're kidding.
you have the feeling in your heart, knowing that they like having you around.
and the kind of sweetness in your heart when they tell you about their feelings and their problems.
cause only then, you know they truly trust you.
friends is about trust.

and the omnipresent smile on your friend's face when he/she is with you.
you'll feel happy too.
because, you know they're glad to have you around.

and when you're sick or feeling blue.
your friends would be by your side.
they're not afraid of being affected or catch your disease.
they're not afraid of having to listen to your problems and woes.
because friends, would care for one another.
and, afterall, your love for them is a kind of disease that is pretty contagious.

friends wouldn't discriminate nor look down at one another.
because friends stand by your sides, at the same level.

friends make you cry, make you laugh, make you mad and make you jump ( ok, for this phrase, i just wanted to make it rhyme XD )
but after all these mess, they're the ones who would stay with you to clean it up.

people dwell on memories, because memories never change when people do.
but true friends never change.
because, when people say that they've changed, they actually didn't. they just started to show their true colours.

friends are real and never put on a mask.
because they want their friends to be true too.

so, put on a smile, not just for yourself, but also, for the people around you.

TO YAZHEN AND REGINA!

2010-10-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

ok, i apologise for not mentioning earlier.

-.-

its just toooooo...well, heh, you know what i mean.

anyway!

THANKYOU FOR THE AWESOME SONG YOU WROTE!

and sang.

no wonder now got fog lah, your fault.

LOL!

anyway, LOVE YOU GUYS!